On My Own…

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There was no rhyme…
There was no reason…

The words you uttered…
Were simply treason…

Fired from your lips…
Embedding in my back…

From out of the blue…
Like some stealth attack…

That left me reeling…
Spinning out of control…

Slashing at my arteries…
And scaring my soul…

Pushing my fragile mind…
Into depths of despair…

Plunging me into darkness…
Yet you simply didn’t care….

As the world where you live…
Has quickly moved on…

With a brand new lover…
Who worships your sun…

Never looking behind you…
Only focused straight ahead…

And for all that you care…
I could be lifeless and dead…

But I stand in the wreckage…
Of loves broken dream…

With a heart so damaged…
And ripped at the seams…

Looking for something…
To break my free fall…

Clinging on to the hope…
That this isn’t it all…

And someday, sometime…
When the pain has distilled …

I can use this experience…
To try and slowly rebuild…

But until that moment…
The world is shrouded in black…

Where my mind is still shaking…
From your vicious attack…

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©Eyewillnotcry1973

Poem inspired by “Still Getting Used To Being On My Own” by Tom Odell

 

Wrong Answer…

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The deafening silence…
Rings in my ears…

Crushing my thoughts…
Emphasizing my fears…

In a world of darkness…
With no light to see…

I thought it was them…
But it’s deep within me…

There’s no one to blame…
And no finger to point…

Upon quiet reflection…
The realisation disappoints…

As the fire that started…
Was set by my own hand…

And it burned with a fury…
They could never understand…

But I blocked out the memory…
Of striking that match…

I ran from the chaos…
And managed to detach…

From everything within me…
And all that surrounds…

But the questioning voices…
Still followed me around…

They haunted my dreams…
Quietly whispering at night…

They left no escape route…
As I knew they were right…

Yet I knew all the risks…
Still ignored the advice…

My eyes were wide open…
Whilst my soul was alive…

As the electricity crackled…
And seeped into my soul…

It became a one way journey…
Into a deep black hole…

And now I stand here…
Staring out to sea…

Asking the right questions…
But the wrong answer is me…

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©Eyewillnotcry1973

Inspired by the song “Wrong Crowd” by Tom Odell

Trouble…

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What does this mean…
Is this all just a game…

Your lips spell out one thing…
But your eyes not the same…

Leading to total confusion…
And a place of half-light…

Where whispering voices…
Conflict and they fight…

Where movement in shadows…
Catch the corner of the eye…

Disturbing and distracting…
Like every one of your lies…

Each like a tiny arrow…
Fired from high up above…

Quickly finding their target…
Destroying any chance of love…

Because the light in your eyes…
Is getting dimmer each day…

No matter how you protest…
No matter what you say…

And each passing moment…
Feels like an eternity…

Incarcerating all thoughts…
Destroying all the fantasies…

Leaving dreams stranded…
Left in no man’s land…

Out of sight, out of mind…
Shattered by your hand…

Why can’t you be honest…
And just cut all the ties…

Pass on the key to freedom…
Allow wings to finally fly…

But you don’t want to do that…
This is more about control…

The power that flows through you…
Feeds your embittered soul…

Leaving him trapped in your web…
His soul broken beyond belief…

As you sucked the life from him…
With all your fucking deceit…

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©Eyewillnotcry1973

Inspired by the song “I knew you were trouble” covered by Tom Odell

“I know what you told me, I know it’s all over”…

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She never was yours…
Despite anything she said…

Her lies filled the silence…
Just fucking with your head…

She sucked on your soul…
Like a vampire sucking blood…

She drained your emotions…
Whilst feasting on the flood…

Because the girl had a heart…
Which loved two things…

The twisted demon’s darkness…
And the angel’s white wings…

You were caught in between…
The push and the pull…

Forwards then backwards…
Till your poor head was full…

And it left you spinning…
Around and around…

Never quite knowing…
Feet never on firm ground…

One moment you felt special…
The next you felt used…

An emotional roller-coaster…
That was designed to confuse…

As she chased distraction…
And the excitement it brings…

Which made her feel alive…
Made her distorted soul sing…

She craved sinful electricity…
And your safety never compared…

But she needed both to live…
That’s why she wasn’t prepared…

To commit to you completely…
And live just half a life…

She took the best of both worlds…
Danced on the edge of the knife…

Never really telling the truth…
Never caring that you cried…

And though you never gave up hope…
You were always second prize…

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“And they keep calling out, calling out someone’s name”…

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Like Siren’s on the rocks…

Calling ships to shore

Their voices fill the air

Tempting him once more…

Knowing all his secrets

All his dark fantasies

Exploiting his weakness…

Distorting what he sees…

The world around him

And all that he knows

Begin to melt away…

As the North wind blows…

Bringing their words to his ear

And infecting his soul…

A Voodoo type of magic

That simply takes control

Of his thoughts and actions

Which take a life of their own

And the darkness inside him…

Is once again shown

Yet there is nothing he can do…

He’s spellbound by their voices

Those serpents in the grass

Who remove all of his choices…

Telling him what to do

Commanding that he listens…

Like a puppet on a string

Who never learns his lessons

Sleepwalking back towards them…

The moment they appear

Numbing all his senses

Forgetting all his fears

But those Siren’s on the rocks…

Speak in tongues of strangers

And he needs to wake up

Then understand the dangers…

Yet they beckon him over

Knowing he will always fall…

And that he’ll forever be

At their sinful beck and call

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“The way you hit me when you wanna fight”…

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Maybe it’s yes…

Maybe it’s no…

But it feels like…

It’s time to go…

And walk away…

Leave her behind…

Give her the freedom…

With peace of mind…

End the confusion…

Avoid more hurt…

Linked to seduction…

Spells and flirts…

Enchanted encounters…

Moments of pleasure…

That last a lifetime…

Imprinted forever…

Like a tattoo…

Etched on the skin…

A permanent reminder…

Of lust and dark sin…

Remembering the times…

He felt her force…

Riding that feeling…

Like an untamed horse…

Running so free…

Alone in the wild…

No sign of pressure…

Nature’s carefree child…

Creating memories…

But causing havoc…

Mental strain…

And internal panic…

That comes after…

Drowning in her eyes…

But for those seconds…

On wings, he flies…

But it must be yes…

And only silence will show…

If they were right…

And it was time to go…

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