“She’ll come slowly rising, on the air”…

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She found the letter…
And read the words…

She fell to the ground…
Her cry scattered the birds…

She laid there in shock…
Just couldn’t take it all in…

She didn’t know what to do…
Didn’t know where to begin…

She was enveloped in sadness…
Became shrouded in black…

She couldn’t ever accept…
He was never coming back…

She became so isolated…
Felt so goddamned trapped…

She was blinded by the pain…
Knew she would never adapt…

She loved him so much…
But felt so empty inside…

She craved his smell…
Needed his hand to guide…

She felt so alone…
Like life had no meaning…

She became a shadow…
Only seen in the evening…

She could not see…
Knew the silence would last…

She couldn’t move on…
Was entombed in the past…

She had believed in forever…
And dreamt of growing old…

She could not cope…
As depression took hold…

She lost the will to live…
And decided to get out…

She swallowed the pills…
Without hesitation or doubt…

Then she found him again…
As he sat waiting for her…

The couple finally reunited…
In Death’s cold, hazy blur…

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“I’ve lost before, you know I can’t forget”…

Please welcome James as my latest guest poet – you can follow James on Twitter here:

@jamesleachpoet

Enjoy!

Cheers
J

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Defeat (16)

I don’t know where, I don’t know why,
I guessed it must have passed me by.
I realise now what I have lost.
I never knew what it would cost.

They say the past is history,
And that’s the same for you and me.
Today’s a gift it’s my present,
to share with you this sentiment.

The futures vague like a mystery,
We’ll never know what we could be.
You left me, broken, cold, alone,
I miss you laughing I miss you moan.

Be it through woe or ecstasy,
your voice will always comfort me.
I know that things will never change,
I only have myself to blame.

I should have seen divides ahead
But I saw ignorance instead.
I should have seen it on your face.
You should still be with me today.

How I feel now is terrible,
was up so high, so far to fall.
When you’re in love it’s total bliss,
being with you I sorely miss.

The good, the bad, all that we shared,
I tried to show how much I cared.
I guess for you it’s not enough,
which means for me that luck is tough.

You’ll always be the one for me,
But without you we cannot be.
So I will ponder head facing feet
and try to cope with this defeat

“Talking with my brother, when the lights went out”…

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I don’t think about him…

Every single day…

Since Neptune came…

And took him away…

Filling his lungs…

In that watery grave…

It happened so fast…

With no chance to save…

A life extinguished…

In the blink of an eye…

A grieving family…

Left simply asking why…

Why was he chosen…

Out of everyone…

What was the reason…

Just what had he done…

For the beautiful mermaids…

To refuse him assistance…

And hiding their eyes…

As he fought for existence…

Only Eleven years old…

With an innocent smile…

No hint of corruption…

Just a happy child…

Who loved his life…

And all that it brought…

Yet the Gods wanted him…

No matter how we fought…

But in the midst of it all…

Trauma hit my head…

Not really understanding…

He really was dead…

But by learning to lock…

The painful memories away…

Dividing into little boxes…

To be faced, maybe one day…

Then perhaps that event…

Shaped who I really am…

A boy forever trapped…

Within the emotionless man…

Who doesn’t think about things…

In the way others do…

As it’s painful to remember…

The little boy who turned blue…

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“Trusting in the fire while the cruel flame burns”…

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Please, please persuade me…
Gently twist my arm…
Go on make me do it…
Can’t do any harm…

Softly say it to me…
Get inside my head…
Distort my blurred reality…
I’m just so easily led…

Am open to the thrill of it…
Just need a subtle push…
Down the dark garden path…
Behind that leafy bush…

Where no one else can see…
Or will ever know…
The secrets and the lies…
Within the sinful shadow…

Order me to do it…
Be so fucking forceful…
Make me trust and obey you…
You push, I promise I’ll pull…

Bind my slender wrists…
Blind my deceitful eyes…
Use your sharpened nails…
Take me by utter surprise…

Leave a lasting imprint…
Tattoo it on my soul…
Be the twisted lightning…
In life’s fucked up Black hole…

Be my forbidden distraction…
An oasis in the dark…
A secret only we can trust…
The place my guilt can park…

Fuel my very destruction…
So intense and so reckless…
It’s absorbing my very soul…
Hung on your entangled necklace…

Please will you persuade me…
You alone own the key…
I know you want to do it…
Just force me to my knees…

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“They’re lost and you’re losing your way”…

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The smell of the ocean and
the sound of the waves…

A tiny slice of heaven,
he could sit here for days…

Just allowing himself,
some private indulgence…

Unchaining his mind,
from life’s dark dungeon…

Watching the birds,
gliding on a slight breeze…

Admiring the conflict,
of the land versus the sea…

As they lock horns in,
their constant battle…

Whilst the sun beams down,
with its warm rays that will…

Create a peaceful memory,
he’ll remember forever…

Imprinted in his mind,
as he begins to endeavour…

To prevent the dark clouds,
that will soon arrive…

Spoiling this oasis,
causing his mood to dive…

And the Black solitude,
once again begins…

It’s a constant presence,
that’s carried on the wind…

Draining his thoughts and
trapping his broken soul…

Chained by the demons,
who once again take control…

But in this moment,
it’s just him and the sea…

He’s feeling so alive and
he’s feeling so free…

Smelling the ocean and
listening to the waves…

This tiny slice of heaven,
has the power to save…

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“Dust to dust and fire to ashes”…

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Is he asleep…
Or is he awake…
Is this a dream…
And his reality fake…

Nothing makes sense…
His thoughts conflict…
Everything he’s touched…
Has just fallen to bits…

A mental disaster…
All of his making…
His head of confusion…
Leaves him stood shaking…

Afraid of his memories…
Regretting sinful desires…
He knows he’ll end up…
In Hell’s emotional fires…

On a one way ticket…
There will be no return…
He will be consumed…
Aware his soul will burn…

He doesn’t know when…
And he doesn’t know where…
So he stumbles through life…
Blinded by his despair…

As he’s stuck in a moment…
One fragment of time…
Replayed over and over…
But he can never rewind…

He can’t repair the damage…
Or pretend it’s not real…
All that’s been done…
Time just refuses to heal…

The hand that grabbed her…
By her slender throat…
Till her lifeless body…
Began to silently float…

Now she’s asleep…
And will never awake…
Her never ending dream…
His one big mistake…

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“I’m fed up of crying, my despair is dying, turning into rage”…

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Sometimes he’s left to question…
Is he alive or is he dead…
Because no one seems to listen…
Or understand a single word he said…

No one seems to notice…
Does anyone even care…
As the anger inside him boils away…
This ignorant world should beware…

Because the rage inside is building…
The colour Red is all he sees…
He’s trembling with pure anger…
He’s going to bring them to their knees…

He will force them all listen…
He’s got a lot to fucking say…
And like a nuclear explosion…
Innocent people may have to pay…

He needs to make a statement…
Knows actions speak louder than words…
He’ll pour petrol on the burning fire…
And kill all the high flying birds…

In his mind he’s always scheming…
How to implement his plan…
In his head it all makes perfect sense…
That’s where this all began…

He has the story written…
Each chapter eased his pain…
His words described the ending…
The battle scarred hero left insane…

It’s going to be his masterpiece…
His legacy on this cold Earth…
That will teach the bastards…
And prove his soul has worth…

But for now he’s left to question…
How the knife got in his hand…
Why blood is pouring from his wrists…
They’ll listen now, but they’ll never understand…

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