Second Prize…

girlls

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He never was yours…
Despite anything he said…

His lies filled the silence…
Just fucking with your head…

He sucked on your soul…
Like a vampire sucking blood…

He drained your emotions…
Whilst feasting on the flood…

Because the boy had a heart…
Which loved two things…

The twisted demon’s darkness…
And the angel’s white wings…

You were caught in between…
The push and the pull…

Forwards then backwards…
Till your poor head was full…

And it left you spinning…
Around and around…

Never quite knowing…
Feet never on firm ground…

One moment you felt special…
The next you felt used…

An emotional roller-coaster…
That was designed to confuse…

As he chased your distraction…
And the excitement it brings…

Which made him feel alive…
Made his distorted soul sing…

He craved sinful electricity…
And your safety never compared…

But he needed both to live…
That’s why he wasn’t prepared…

To commit to you completely…
And live just half a life…

He took the best of both worlds…
Danced on the edge of the knife…

Never really telling the truth…
Never caring that you cried…

And though you never gave up hope…
You would always be second prize…

~

©Eyewillnotcry1973

Inspired by the song “Two out of Three Ain’t Bad” By Meatloaf

“And maybe you can cry all night”…

girlls

~

He never was yours…
Despite anything he said…

His lies filled the silence…
Just fucking with your head…

He sucked on your soul…
Like a vampire sucking blood…

He drained your emotions…
Whilst feasting on the flood…

Because the boy had a heart…
Which loved two things…

The twisted demon’s darkness…
And the angel’s white wings…

You were caught in between…
The push and the pull…

Forwards then backwards…
Till your poor head was full…

And it left you spinning…
Around and around…

Never quite knowing…
Feet never on firm ground…

One moment you felt special…
The next you felt used…

An emotional roller-coaster…
That was designed to confuse…

As he chased distraction…
And the excitement it brings…

Which made him feel alive…
Made his distorted soul sing…

He craved sinful electricity…
And your safety never compared…

But he needed both to live…
That’s why he wasn’t prepared…

To commit to you completely…
And live just half a life…

He took the best of both worlds…
Danced on the edge of the knife…

Never really telling the truth…
Never caring that you cried…

And though you never gave up hope…
You were always second prize…

~

“I tried to show you just how much I care”…

relationships-breakup

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I wish I knew, what I know now…
Right from the very start…
Now it’s laid out before me…
The truth inside your heart…

Your words so cruelly spoken…
Those cleverly constructed lies…
Roll off your tongue with ease…
Forcing tears into my eyes…

Each one a guilt laced arrow…
Embedding into my brain…
Forcing me to defend myself…
Whilst twisted up with pain…

I used to know you better…
Better than you knew yourself…
But that’s no longer true…
And I need to protect myself…

I can’t believe the difference…
Or what’s changed in you…
It’s like you are a stranger…
Not the person I once knew…

You once were soft and gentle…
So much fun to be around…
But something’s taken over…
Destroying the love we found…

Now you’re evil and vicious…
Moods swinging wild and free…
Like a volcano always erupting…
Or a killer in the midst of a spree…

I’ve tried hard to begin again…
Go back to the very start…
When our world was young…
Before we were ripped apart…

I’ve tried forgetting the past…
The damage that’s been done…
Vanquish the haunting demons…
Set a course towards the sun…

I’ve tried unlocking the chains…
That keep on holding us back…
A heavy and constant reminder…
Keeping our memories Black…

I’ve tried looking inside my soul…
For reasons to keep us close…
But the way you act around me…
I can’t destroy our ghosts…

I wish I knew, what I know now…
Right from the very start…
Now it’s laid out before me…
It’s breaking my fragile heart…

~

“I tried to show you just how much I care”…

relationships-breakup

~

I wish I knew, what I know now…
Right from the very start…
Now it’s laid out before me…
The truth inside your heart…

Your words so cruelly spoken…
Those cleverly constructed lies…
Roll off your tongue with ease…
Forcing tears into my eyes…

Each one a guilt laced arrow…
Embedding into my brain…
Forcing me to defend myself…
Whilst twisted up with pain…

I used to know you better…
Better than you knew yourself…
But that’s no longer true…
And I need to protect myself…

I can’t believe the difference…
Or what’s changed in you…
It’s like you are a stranger…
Not the person I once knew…

You once were soft and gentle…
So much fun to be around…
But something’s taken over…
Destroying the love we found…

Now you’re evil and vicious…
Moods swinging wild and free…
Like a volcano always erupting…
Or a killer in the midst of a spree…

I’ve tried hard to begin again…
Go back to the very start…
When our world was young…
Before we were ripped apart…

I’ve tried forgetting the past…
The damage that’s been done…
Vanquish the haunting demons…
Set course towards the sun…

I’ve tried unlocking the chains…
That keep on holding us back…
A heavy and constant reminder…
Keeping our memories Black…

I’ve tried looking inside my soul…
For reasons to keep us close…
But the way you act around me…
I can’t destroy our ghosts…

I wish I knew what I know now…
Right from the very start…
Now it’s laid out before me…
It’s breaking my fragile heart…

~

“I tried to show you just how much I care”…

~

I wish I knew what I know now…
Right from the very start…
Now it’s laid out before me…
The truth inside your heart…

Your words so cruelly spoken…
Those cleverly constructed lies…
Roll off your tongue with ease…
Forcing tears into my eyes…

Each one a guilt laced arrow…
Embedding into my brain…
Forcing me to defend myself…
Whilst twisted up with pain…

I used to know you better…
Better than you knew yourself…
But that’s no longer true…
And I need to protect myself…

I can’t believe the difference…
Or what’s changed in you…
It’s like you are a stranger…
Not the person I once knew…

You once were soft and gentle…
So much fun to be around…
But something’s taken over…
Destroying the love we found…

Now you’re evil and vicious…
Moods swinging wild and free…
Like a volcano always erupting…
Or a killer in the midst of a spree…

I’ve tried hard to begin again…
Go back to the very start…
When our world was young…
Before we were ripped apart…

I’ve tried forgetting the past…
The damage that’s been done…
Vanquish the haunting demons…
Set course towards the sun…

I’ve tried unlocking the chains…
That keep on holding us back…
A heavy and constant reminder…
Keeping our memories Black…

I’ve tried looking inside my soul…
For reasons to keep us close…
But the way you act around me…
I can’t destroy our ghosts…

I wish I knew what I know now…
Right from the very start…
Now it’s laid out before me…
It’s breaking my fragile heart…

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