Maybe…

pain

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This pain will one day pass…
And your eyes will begin to see…

The world spinning around you…
Is still full of wonder & fantasy…

And the hurt you are now feeling…
Will heal in the fullness of time…

Becoming your heart’s scar tissue…
A lump that will always remind…

Of the time when you flew so high…
Stretched your wings amongst the birds…

Danced between thunder & lightning…
Allowed electricity to ignite your world…

Taking you to some places…
You never thought you’d go…

Tasting such experiences…
You never thought you’d know…

And emotions never felt before…
Due to a version of yourself unseen…

Someone who sat deep within you…
Yet you never had the chance to be…

But now she walks alongside you…
The two of you have become one…

Now you face the challenge…
Of keeping her out of the sun…

Making sure she’s quietly hidden…
Forcing her out of plain sight…

Because if reality ever sees her…
Your mind will lose this fight…

And then life won’t be worth living…
Because it won’t be worth the cost…

As everything you know & love…
Will be shattered & will be lost…

So don’t let her colour your world…
Prevent her from taking control…

Be strong try to fight her…
Because the prize is your very soul…

As I promise this pain will pass…
And your eyes will slowly see…

That what maybe seemed so exciting…
Was always just a vivid fantasy…

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“Telling my whole life with his words, killing me softly with his song”…

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Today I welcome back my inspiring and much loved guest poet Cate – Enjoy!

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Poet Who Heals the Souls

You’ve done it again
Do you know what you do
Painting with palette of words
Capturing my shades of blue

You tell it like it is what it is
Do you realise your steadying influence
Toying with magical ribbons of prose
Tying me in knots of conscience

You write with such bravery
Do you often feel the fear
Exposing bare wounds
Making me lose my own veneer

You twist the stories darker
Do you relish the extreme ending
Needing to spit and spite in Hell
Hitting me with the heat you’re expending

You make sense of the senseless
Do you see how you give clarity
Focussing the looking glass
Supporting my turmoil with parity

You hit hard where it hurts
Do you have notion of your crime
Having talent that is inspiring
Breaking my heart time after time

You know where it’s going
Do you hope to engage finality
Forcing words deeper inside
Opening my eyes to reality

You feel what you’re doing
Do you reach out to touch
Unravelling your readers’ souls
Knowing my turmoil helps so much

You show honesty through rhythms
Do you hear the heart beats
Flowing your streams of conscious
Writing my life so history never repeats

You take followers on journeys
Do you lead them knowingly
Waking the healing power of your lines
Giving me perspective guiding gently

You capture moments so exquisite
Do you see the genius you hold
Providing a haul of scenarios
Seizing my mind’s eyeful that is untold

You are prolific in delivery
Do you churn out all you have inside
Fighting to keep inner demons happy
Championing my efforts to battle the tide

You have space to share your ability
Do so with humour, quirks and darkness
Gifting your catalogue for the world to see
Inspiring me to need you more I confess

You will be humbled by this
Do you take it I wonder tonight
Hoping you absorb admiration and love
Allowing my poem about you to take flight

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If you would like to guest poem on my blog, please drop me a photo, words and a song to eyewillnotcry@hotmail.co.uk

 

 

 

“Maybe I can’t see, maybe it’s just me”…

 

pain

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This pain will one day pass and
your eyes will begin to see…

The world spinning around you is still,
full of wonder and fantasy…

The hurt that you are feeling,
will heal in the fullness of time…

Becoming your heart’s scar tissue and
a lump that will always remind…

Of the time when you flew high,
with wings amongst the birds…

Danced between thunder and lightning,
as electricity ignited your world…

Taking you to some places that,
you never thought you’d go…

Providing you with such experiences,
you never thought you’d know…

And emotions seldom felt before,
thanks to a version of yourself unseen…

Someone who sat deep within you,
but you never had the chance to be…

But now she walks alongside you and
the two of you have become one…

Now you face the challenge of,
keeping this version out of the sun…

Making sure she’s quietly hidden and
forcing her out of plain sight…

Because if reality ever sees her,
your mind will lose this fight…

And then life won’t be worth living,
because it will not be worth the cost…

As everything you know and love,
will be shattered and be lost…

So don’t let her colour your world and
prevent her from taking control…

Be strong and fucking fight her,
because the prize is your very soul…

As I promise this pain will pass and
your eyes will slowly begin to see…

That what was so very exciting,
was always just a vivid fantasy…

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“And I’m counting the steps to the door of your heart”…

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Stood amongst the wreckage,
of a broken and shattered dream…

Placing fingers in her ears,
blocking out her heart’s screams…

Ignoring its mournful beats and
hating its melancholy sound…

Whilst all her secret fantasies,
lie in tatters upon the ground…

Because the feelings she avoided,
for oh so very long…

Have circled her like vultures,
to prove that she was wrong…

As she spent so long denying,
that this was ever real…

That he was just a fantasy,
when he was perhaps the real deal…

And he had found a place,
deep inside her heart…

Forcing her to love him and
she knew it from the start…

She never could admit it,
but tried to detach and keep it fun…

Yet it was much too late to stop,
as the infusion had already begun…

Every time she looked at him and
each time they shared a bed…

He drilled a little further,
deep inside her fucked up head…

But did ever really love her,
or simply need her in his life…

Aware of the added complications,
as they walked along the razor edged knife…

That made this dream impossible,
proving it could never be real…

Yet it fooled her heart into thinking,
that this was how she should act and feel…

Now stood amongst the wreckage and
as her broken heart silently screams…

She knows that this dreams all over,
but can’t halt her tearful streams…

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“It’s hard to let go, of all that we know”…

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One for dark sorrow…
Two for deep joy…
How she now misses…
Her forbidden secret boy…
The one she met…
Out of the Blue…
Who changed her life…
And all she knew…

Stroking her ego…
Touching her soul…
As her life spun…
Out of all control…
And into the shadows…
Away from the light…
With secret rendezvous…
Hidden from sight…

Taking such risks…
With all she held dear…
Making sure she kept…
Her shiny lover so near…
And chasing adventure…
With her aching heart…
As she became infected…
By Lust’s poison dart…

Tasting his sweetness…
Touching his skin…
Allowing him to enter…
So deep within…
Her heart and mind…
Ripping down her defences…
And as he poured himself in…
She lost all her senses…

Till it got too much…
And it just had to stop…
Where from a Dizzy Height…
She was forced to drop…
Now wallowing in sorrow…
Remembering fragments of joy…
How this Magpie misses…
Her Black and White boy…

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“She’s the life, I’ve been frightened of”…

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The smiling Magpie queen…
Dances half naked in the square…
Her Black magic moves…
Ensure they stop and stare…

She’s the centre of attention…
Enchanting as she goes…
Impatient and demanding…
Wanting everyone to know…

Something about nothing…
Just fragments here and there…
Revealing her dark secrets…
If she’s brave enough to dare…

And confess all of her sins…
The glitter that she craves…
That never ending thirst…
Knows her soul she’ll never save…

As it’s getting much too late…
To ever turn back now…
Or beg them for forgiveness…
Redeeming herself somehow…

Because she can never stop…
In the midst of an addiction…
So she flaps her magic wings…
With a renewed conviction…

As she just loves the feeling…
Of being so utterly desired…
Having her ego stroked…
It relights her dimming fires…

And she’s flying towards oblivion…
But aware of all the risks…
She faces them head on…
Then ticks them off her list…

But this dancing Magpie queen…
Is not sure where to stop…
See’s the line and crosses it…
Determined to stay on top…

As she tangos with the Devil…
Intoxicated by his sexual smell…
Bewitched by the seductive danger…
She remains under his Lustful spell…

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“I can hold my breath, I can bite my tongue”…

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Yes, she’s back – more words and another song choice from my much loved guest writer Cate…

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Tap Tap Tap…..

You’re a drug
I’m tapping my arm in anticipation
Also my action to stop this compulsion
Trying to stall rejection
I’m an anonymous addict
You my drug

I can’t get enough
I’m craving your touch in isolation
Also my way to hold on to prevention
Trying to wrestle preservation
I have an endless wanting
You my drug

I don’t hold back
I’m opening body and mind in drowsy titillation
Also my way to lose inhibition
Trying to justify a lack of vision
I’ve closed eyes wide open
You my drug

I can’t stop grazing
I’m giving in to ‘eat me’ temptation
Also my crawl into sweet sensation
Trying to tumble into a hole of oblivion
I’ve slipped and relapsed
You my drug

I can’t halt contact
I’m needing to provoke a reaction
Also opportunity for full interaction
Trying to elicit your inner intervention
I’ll deny in whispers or louder
You my drug

I won’t wait now
I’m urging your willingness for satisfaction
Also to hear of your constant attraction
Trying to force not words but action
I’m ready for venomous reality to bite
You my drug

I have you here
I’m allowing us time for seduction
Also my chance for demonstration
Trying to clamber to a higher elevation
I’m not letting go this time
You my drug

I grip you tighter
I feel the need for completion
Also our keeping up the pretension 
Trying to believe in an eternal connection
I confess for nirvana 
You my drug

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