“I wish I had missed the first time that we kissed”…

loneliness_of_soul

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He’ll never understand…
And he’ll never really know…

The mental pain she felt…
In simply letting him go…

The chains that she unlocked…
To end all of the madness…

Freeing his imperfect soul…
Removing all the sadness…

By becoming so distant…
Extracting herself from his life…

She knew it had to be done…
Despite all of the strife…

Because she’d fallen too far…
And there was no return…

Leading to an ending…
That would scar and burn…

As he was not hers…
Just an impossible dream…

Which haunted her nights…
With such painful screams…

Providing so many regrets…
Each day of her sad life…

That he was not in it…
As she replays and rewinds…

But there really was no future…
And she had to decide…

Even if it killed her…
So she hid the pain inside…

As his gentle brown eyes…
Turned from confusion into hate…

Not really understanding…
And now it’s far too late…

The walls are erected…
With the friendship lost…

And no stolen moment…
Was worth this huge cost…

But she had to move on…
And allow her head to drive…

It’s the only way she knows…
It’s the only way she survives…

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“Everyone I know, goes away in the end”…

dark

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Switching it all off…
Trying to zone out…

My head’s full of trouble…
My mind’s full of doubt…

In need of something…
To remove this pain…

Release the burden…
And ease the strain…

As I’m falling deeper…
And sinking so fast…

You promised to help…
But your promises don’t last…

You walked away…
Not feeling a thing…

On the cliff edge…
You left me hanging…

Ignoring my words…
And numb to it all…

Your callous heart…
Doesn’t care if I fall…

As your ears don’t listen…
Your eyes don’t see…

You were never focused…
On my desperate plea…

We were friends forever…
Until it got rough…

A fair-weather friend…
Once it got tough…

You followed the path…
Of least resistance…

Only caring about…
Your own fucking existence…

Leaving me drowning…
In this pool of self-pity…

Cold and all alone…
In such a heartless city…

Searching for something…
To take my pain away…

And wondering if these pills…
Will be the easy pathway…

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“Wash the poison from off my skin, show me how to be whole again”…

sanity

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He wrestles with his conscience…
Discards relationships of the past…
The ones that made a man of him…
With memories which will last…
But are now locked in boxes…
Stacked at the back of his head…
He’s denying they ever existed…
He wishes they were all dead…

Refusing to face his demons…
Preferring just to run away…
As he can’t handle the truth…
Since that cold December day…
When the past was reinvented…
And his future rearranged…
Ripped into tiny little pieces…
Leaving his poor mind deranged…

And infected him with a poison…
That seeped into his veins…
Blurred his once perfect vision…
Left him totally insane…
And questioning his morality…
The who, what, when and why…
Of both the seen and the unseen…
That exist beneath the weeping sky…

As he begs for a return…
To his younger, innocent days…
Where life was just a playground…
With slides and swings to play…
But now it’s just a carousel…
That spins and spins so fast…
No opportunity to jump off…
Knows this twisted ride must last…

As he keeps on paying…
For the sins and all the lies…
That he’s been committing…
Away from all the prying eyes…
As he wrestles with his conscience…
Discarding memories of the past…
The ones which will never leave him…
The deep dark scars that will forever last…

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