The Letters…

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The letters I’d written…
Never meaning to send…

Words from deep down…
Not in need of a friend…

Nor a listening ear…
Or an inquiring mind…

Very carefully hidden…
For no one to find…

Locked in my boxes…
Just gathering dust…

For my eyes only…
No one else could I trust…

Knowing the content…
Each and every word…

Those pain filled pages…
Never spoken or heard…

But now you’ve found them…
Flush with achievement…

Think you’re so clever…
Dancing with my demons…

Removing the context…
Adding your own spin…

Interpreting your own way…
And using them to win…

Leaving me wounded…
Lying on the stone cold floor…

Kicking me in the stomach…
Could you gloat anymore…

As I shrink smaller and smaller…
Right before your very eyes…

Falling into a dark depression…
Still you never really realised…

The impact of your actions…
The scars left by your words…

But the wounds you prise open…
Push me further towards…

Making that final decision…
As maybe then you will see…

That hidden within those letters…
Was the true version of me…

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“I’m going crazy, a little everyday”…

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Feel these words,
this is fucking insane…

So much to lose,
but too little to gain…

Only stolen moments,
that boost for a while…

And drunken hazes,
making you smile…

But are simply masking,
the darkness within…

And never uncovering,
just what is missing…

Something deep down,
that keeps you walking…

On the dangerous side,
hearing only Devils talking…

Watching demons play,
hidden out of the light…

In their never ending quest,
in their never ending fight…

To find some freedom and
feel at peace…

It’s what you once had,
but the beast now feasts…

He’s turning your head,
busy sowing the seeds…

And self-destruction,
is where this will lead…

Where a fleeting moment,
is all it will take…

For this to unravel and
reveal the mistakes…

And at that point,
all hope will be lost…

As all you have built,
will bear the full cost…

So feel these words,
this is no longer a game…

There’s so much to lose and
there will be so much pain…

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Amazing art by Kimmy Rattelman