“But half of me, deserves everything he gets”…

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He’s found a way to live…
Devoid of all emotion…

A simple trick of the mind…
Sets the wheels in motion…

Locking it all away…
Preventing any tears…

That would flood his eyes…
If he remembered all the years…

The good times and the bad…
All his stupid mistakes…

On the road that he has travelled…
The decisions that he’s made…

In the search of some distraction…
Whilst hiding in plain sight…

But distorting his reality…
Under cover of the night…

Where he becomes another…
Assumes that personality…

The one that he keeps hidden…
So no one else can see…

Like Dr Jekyll and Mr Hyde…
At the flick of a switch…

Sees a quick transformation…
Like a spell cast by a witch…

Turning to the dark side…
Tuning into evil thoughts…

Listening to the demons…
Forgetting all he’s been taught…

And living in the shadows…
Searching for like minds…

Those who understand him…
Not judging what they find…

But then he forgets it all…
In the light of the morning sun…

Pretends it never happened…
And moves on, starts to run…

Like a scared little child…
A boy just like Peter Pan…

Who never really grew up…
Or understood life’s plan…

Trapped in a prison…
His own private cell…

He can never escape it…
Some days it feels like Hell…

So he’s now found a way…
To live without emotion…

It’s how he exists…
It’s the path he has chosen…

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“I’ll tell you my sins and you can sharpen your knife”…

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The hand written confession,
she left by the bed…

Was filled with dark secrets,
from deep within her head…

Revealing her anguish and
stained by her tears…

It was an accumulation,
built up through the years…

She’s now left it behind,
for those close to read…

As her battle scarred soul,
was released and finally freed…

And this detailed explanation,
confessed all her sins…

All the mistakes she made,
whilst encouraged to sing…

By the Devil in her heart,
such a forbidden lover…

Who took full control and
distracted like no other…

She was attracted to him,
like a moth to a flame…

She couldn’t resist him and
she carried that shame…

Along with many secrets,
that she hid from her world…

As she risked everything,
whilst the whirlwind whirled…

And swept her up into,
a deceitful double life…

Rendezvousing with strangers and
sexual encounters in the night…

But the thrill of the moment,
bore the heavy price of guilt…

And the cold morning light,
would waken her demons inbuilt…

Who haunted her days,
till she could take no more…

And when she finished the letter,
she finally ended that war…

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“Eye spy the worst place, in the world”…

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This is a true story…

One that’s seldom heard…

But whispered in dark corners…

And ignited by the words…

That are never spoken aloud…

In fear of what they’ll say…

As someone is always watching…

Each minute of every day…

In a story that encapsulates…

The true meaning of desire…

Of the sinful undertakings…

That flicker in Hell’s fire…

A story that gets buried…

Out of sight, out of your mind…

In a land full of deception…

Where distraction is designed…

To drag each and every soul…

Deep into its Black depths…

Where the depraved simply exist…

And the sinner simply regrets…

But is no longer capable…

Of pure thought and deed…

Which was instantly replaced…

By the Devil’s evil seed…

That has taken a firm grip…

Entwined around cold hearts…

From the very first moment…

Like a poison filled dart…

Piercing each and every soul…

And infecting all their thoughts…

Removing all the goodness…

And the innocence once taught…

This is the story of demons…

A story of pure evil ways…

Where nothing is ever sacred…

And nothing will ever stay…

Covered up or hidden…

As this story will always be re-told…

And if you didn’t heed the warning…

Eye spy a fool playing with Gold…

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“I once was blind but now I see”…

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Entered in Nineteen Seventy Three…

Born into a dysfunctional family…

In a world verging on insanity…

With so much confusion for all to see…

Emotional blackmail the silver currency…

Each word spoken with bitter cruelty…

Used to pile on such painful misery…

That eroded any chance of purity…

And clouded any kind of clarity…

In regards to his true identity…

Requiring years of cold, hard therapy…

And would end so very horribly…

Sapping any dregs of sympathy…

From people in the industry…

Who laughed at the turmoil of history…

And derided all his claims of tyranny…

Leaving his tears to fall wearily…

Questioning all remaining sanity…

And whilst others mocked his sincerity…

His best laid plans were made secretly…

Never leaving it to serendipity…

And forging a life of mystery…

In a world removed from visibility…

Whilst creating the unique ability…

To experience life so stealthily…

And grasping every opportunity…

To dine in the Devil’s own company…

Becoming the man he wanted to be…

Despite acting so fucking childishly…

And the pleasure ending so painfully…

Locking away memories without a key…

As the storm raged on, so violently…

And “THEY” attacked, so silently…

Whilst he tried to carry on defiantly…

Becoming an outcast of society…

But carrying his scars so eloquently…

Alongside his quest for sobriety…

A battle he fought so privately…

But would never end up positively…

For the child who became inevitably…

Lost since Nineteen Seventy Three…

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“But half of me, deserves everything he gets”…

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He’s found a way to live…
Devoid of all emotion…
A simple trick of the mind…
Sets the wheels in motion…

Locking it all away…
Preventing any tears…
That would flood his eyes…
If he remembered all the years…
 
The good times and the bad…
All his stupid mistakes…
On the road that he has travelled…
The decisions that he’s made…

In the search of distraction…
Whilst hidden in plain sight…
But distorting his reality…
Under the cover of night…
 
When he becomes another…
Assumes that personality…
The one that he keeps hidden…
So no one else can see…

Like Dr Jekyll and Mr Hyde…
At the flick of a switch…
A quick transformation…
Like a spell cast by a witch…

Turning to the dark side…
Tuning into evil thoughts…
Listening to the demons…
Forgetting all he was taught…

And living in the shadows…
Searching for like minds…
Those who understand him…
Not judging what they find…

But then he forgets it all…
In the light of the morning sun…
Pretends it never happened…
And moves on, starts to run…

Like a scared little child…
A boy just like Peter Pan…
Who never really grew up…
Or understood life’s plan…

Trapped in a prison…
His own private cell…
He can never escape it…
Some days it feels like Hell…

So he’s found a way to live…
Devoid of all emotion…
It’s how he now exists…
And the path that he has chosen…

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“But she is the sharp pain in your chest”…

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Did you feel the lightning…
As it struck your heart…
The moment that you saw her…
Right back at the start…

Did she infect your mind…
Was she your only one…
Did she become your universe…
The stars, the moon and sun…

Did you fall deep for her…
Head over fucking heels…
Allow your soul the freedom…
And all your heart to feel…

Did she become your everything…
A simply overwhelming obsession…
Your morning, noon and night…
And your sinful dark confession…

Were her words so powerful…
That you forgot who you were…
Becoming a different person…
Where reality became a blur…

And was that amazing feeling…
Worth the price you paid…
As it all quickly fell apart…
And memories started to fade…

Opening up the empty void…
With nothing that can replace…
The feelings of excitement…
That once lit up your face…

As you sit there wondering…
How the fuck to carry on…
Without all the distraction…
Without her sinful song…

As in pure desperation…
You pushed it all away…
Wanting everything or nothing…
It had to be your way…

But now you miss the lightning…
That once struck your cold, cold heart…
And the moments shared with her…
Right back at the very start…

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