“When you kill the lights, and kiss my eyes”…

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Haunted by the memories…
And the constant flashbacks…

As those nights we shared…
Are now demonic attacks…

That stem from the guilt…
Of being laid next to you…

Pushing sexual boundaries…
Under the spell of voodoo…

The two of us together…
Committing those crimes…

It’s a permanent image…
Burned into my mind…

And those visions return…
Each and every night…

A dark fantasy world…
So wrong, it was right…

Black lace and stockings…
The blindfold and cuffs…

The push and the pull…
Your demands for it rough…

But morning would come…
And the reality hit hard…

Real life was waiting…
This was all a façade…

A distraction that led…
To a destructive addiction…

A fucking fantasy lifestyle…
That defied any description…

Where you were the one…
Who changed everything…

Provided the excitement…
Granted me the wings…

But my payment for this…
Was a mental prison cell…

Whilst the moments were sweet…
Day to day living was hell…

And yet still you remain…
Somewhere deep down inside…

Where memories we created…
Hide behind tears I can’t cry…

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“And these memories lose their meaning”…

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There are moments in life…
You can never live again…

Moments of pure joy…
Moments of searing pain…

Moments of distraction…
Moments of sinful pleasure…

And moments of deep regret…
That haunt you at your leisure…

There are moments of hurt…
That rip out your heart…

Moments of pure insanity…
Never planned for at the start…

There are moments you create…
And moments that just happen…

The ones you didn’t foresee…
But they left you totally flattened…

There are moments you captured…
Now embedded in your brain…

The ones that you dream about…
Watch again, frame by frame…

And moments that backfired…
That became your nightmares…

They haunt you in your sleep…
Pushing you into deep despair…

There are moments you cherish…
Ones that make you smile…

Moments when life had meaning…
And it all felt so worthwhile…

Those moments you rewind…
The ones you try to replay…

Not the moments of regret…
That must be locked away…

And there was a moment of clarity…
When it all came together…

When you realised your path…
Was the route to stormy weather…

And you came to a crossroads…
Where you finally had to choose…

Was this the life you wanted…
Time to stick or twist, bust and lose…

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