Distance…

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She loved from a distance…
Every piece of his soul…

She was dazzled by his charm…
Tried hard to remain in control…

And keep hold of her senses…
Whenever he would appear…

Under the guise of friendship…
That lasted year upon year…

And was always there for him…
Listened intently as he sighed…

Though her dreams at night…
Left her so fucking terrified…

As she never told him the truth…
How she really felt inside…

She never dared to open up…
She kept the feelings denied…

Did he ever really notice…
Did his eyes ever really see…

That her friendship was a mirror…
Deflecting such intensity…

As the fire that burned within her…
Consumed her day and night…

She fantasised about his face…
And she could never really fight…

When he called upon her…
And poured out all his woes…

Her shoulders bore his weight…
This was the role she chose…

As his heart was with another…
And hers was married away…

Such an impossible situation…
That went on day after day…

Until the fateful moment…
When the pretence collapsed…

A simple misplaced sentence…
Left her reeling and poleaxed…

Pushing her into the darkness…
Where silence now fills the void…

As she desperately tries to erase…
All her memories of that boy…

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©Eyewillnotcry1973

Inspired by the song “Distance” by Christina Perri

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“I wish I had missed the first time that we kissed”…

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He’ll never understand…
And he’ll never really know…

The mental pain she felt…
In simply letting him go…

The chains that she unlocked…
To end all of the madness…

Freeing his imperfect soul…
Removing all the sadness…

By becoming so distant…
Extracting herself from his life…

She knew it had to be done…
Despite all of the strife…

Because she’d fallen too far…
And there was no return…

Leading to an ending…
That would scar and burn…

As he was not hers…
Just an impossible dream…

Which haunted her nights…
With such painful screams…

Providing so many regrets…
Each day of her sad life…

That he was not in it…
As she replays and rewinds…

But there really was no future…
And she had to decide…

Even if it killed her…
So she hid the pain inside…

As his gentle brown eyes…
Turned from confusion into hate…

Not really understanding…
And now it’s far too late…

The walls are erected…
With the friendship lost…

And no stolen moment…
Was worth this huge cost…

But she had to move on…
And allow her head to drive…

It’s the only way she knows…
It’s the only way she survives…

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“I promise you the truth can’t hurt us now”…

aiafh

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She woke up feeling happy…
Sun shining through the blinds…

Last night felt so surreal…
Was this finally a sign…

That her life had new direction…
And someone she could love…

He’d come from out of nowhere…
Prayer answered from above…

She’d closed her eyes long ago…
Spoke to the gods unseen…

Begged for divine intervention…
For life to stop being mean…

And like a Black & White movie…
He seemed a real life gentleman…

Treated her like a princess…
Not like the usual cavemen…

Money was of no consequence…
He lavished such amazing gifts…

A man with taste and generosity…
It dazzled the what, buts and ifs…

She was consumed by his presence…
Swept away with such desire…

She’d never felt this way before…
Like walking upon the high wire…

Her head was light and dizzy…
And her heart skipped like a child…

He made her feel so complete…
First time in months she’d smiled…

She was the envy of her friends…
Who could never understand…

What it’s like to be in his arms…
Or to be under his command…

He navigated her spaceship…
Took her far above the stars…

Cast a magic spell on her…
And begun to heal her scars…

His words were so hypnotic…
There became nothing she wouldn’t do…

To protect this special something…
To keep him forever within her view…

Because nothing lasts forever…
And it felt too good to be true…

She knew one day he’d hurt her…
And leave her feeling so blue…

She woke up feeling happy…
Sun shining through the blinds…

Last night felt so surreal…
His body they’ll never find…

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Words originally written for Iris at https://justme792.wordpress.com/author/justme792/

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“I love you even more, than I did before”…

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My jealousy seeps…
Through each open pour…

Knowing she’s with you…
Knowing that she saw…

Every inch of your body…
Knows the way that you taste…

The pleasure she gives you…
Is etched on your face…

And she knows that feeling…
Of having you on her arm…

Like a queen beside you…
Held under your charm…

But yet you’re not happy…
Things aren’t going so well…

This new life you’ve created…
Wasn’t worth all the hell…

The war that you waged…
Those battles we fought…

And the escape to freedom…
You so desperately sought…

Craving your independence…
Wanting to be all alone…

Needing your space…
Our relationship outgrown…

It was never your fault…
Always twisted around…

And your finger of blame…
Made a deafening sound…

Making it so clear…
That you wanted out…

Despite all the protests…
My pleas, my shouts…

And now you sit there…
Lamenting your new life…

It isn’t much better…
You didn’t find paradise…

Yet my jealousy rages…
My anger burns so bright…

But I still can’t hate you…
Just want to hold you so tight…

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“I wish I had missed the first time that we kissed”…

loneliness_of_soul

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He’ll never understand…
And he’ll never know…

The mental pain she felt…
In simply letting him go…

The chains she unlocked…
To end all the madness…

Freeing his imperfect soul…
Removing all his sadness…

By becoming so distant…
Extracting herself from his life…

She knew it had to be done…
Despite all the strife…

Because she’d fallen too far…
And there was no return…

Leading to an ending…
That would scar and burn…

As he was not hers…
Just an impossible dream…

Which haunted her nights…
With such painful screams…

Leading to such regrets…
Each day of her life…

That he was not in it…
As she replays and rewinds…

But there was no future…
And she had to decide…

Even if it killed her…
So she hid the pain inside…

As his gentle eyes…
Turned from confusion into hate…

Not really understanding…
And now it’s far too late…

The walls are erected…
With the friendship lost…

And no stolen moment…
Was worth this huge cost…

But she had to move on…
And allow her head to drive…

It’s the only way she knows…
It’s the only way she survives…

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“When did you decide, that I didn’t have enough to buy”…

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The acidic tone…

Was a stark warning…

But was not heeded…

That Autumnal morning…

The ironic twist…

As the day played out…

The bitter sting…

Leaving no doubt…

Of the path taken…

The decision made…

The signs had been there…

Eyes had started to jade…

Looking so lifeless…

Becoming so dull…

Leaving only one outcome…

The push was the pull…

As a faded attraction…

Got lost over time…

Walking hand in hand…

With a hidden crime…

Tasting like freedom…

That feeling of winning…

Allowing just a glimpse…

Of a new beginning…

One so very tempting…

It forced the change…

And a heartfelt eruption…

Broke free of the chains…

That bound and constricted…

The birds feathered wings…

And enabled its flight…

Allowed it to sing…

Finding a different reality…

In some parallel universe…

Eyes would now sparkle…

Decisions never reversed…

As the heart now beats…

To a different drum…

This soul now reborn…

Its new life begun…

But what gets left behind…

Becomes a game of chess…

A tragedy played out…

Between fearful and fearless…

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“The silent sound of loneliness”…

Blue Star Kachina - the eye of God

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Twinkle twinkle little star…
Can you begin to cover her scars…
 
The open wounds that just won’t heal…
And tell the Devil, it was an unfair deal…
 
Because she’s carried them so very long…
And tried so hard to be so strong…
 
But the time has come to simply accept…
And count the tears she’s never wept…
 
Whilst this cruel world has revolved and spun…
And all the years have long since gone…
 
That she’s not the woman she wanted to be…
And it’s becoming clear for all to see…
 
Full of tragic and selfish notions…
Covering up all hint of her emotions…
 
Walking through this life all alone…
Ran away from her childhood home…
 
And into the middle of the big bad city…
Where no one gave her an ounce of pity…
 
Had to get by all alone and scared…
Could have been different if only she dared…
 
To follow her heart and play with fire…
To let go within and feel inspired…
 
But now her life’s in such a mess…
With no one around to ease her stress…
 
And help her eyes to clearly see…
Just how wonderful her life could be…
 
If she just embraced everything…
And began to teach her soul to sing…

But she cannot see the wood for the trees…
And her minds chained up, she’s on her knees…

Sending a silent prayer to the eye in the stars…
Begging them hear and to heal her scars…

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