“I thought I heard the captain’s voice”…

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The captain’s voice echoed…

Across the stormy sea…

Skimming the cruel waves…

A last desperate plea…

He’d battled sea monsters…

Sea devils and demons…

Fought Neptune’s storms…

And lost all his crew men…

But now he stood there…

Exhausted and alone…

After one final challenge…

Before setting for home…

As she’d got in his head…

And infected his brain…

With an invisible madness…

That drove him insane…

Hearing her quiet whispers…

In the blackness of the night…

Seeing strange dark shadows…

In the cold pale moonlight…

And convinced he saw her…

In the corners of his eyes…

This Queen of the Mermaids…

Who’d hypnotised his mind…

She’d become his obsession…

He had needed to see more…

He was desparate to hold her…

Before heading back for shore…

So he’d set out to find her…

In the midst of a great storm…

But with no stars to guide him…

He ended up lost and forlorn…

In the midst of the oceans anger…

And waves climbing so high…

He now clings to the mast…

With tears in his eyes…

Standing there calling…

Her name out to sea…

Where nobody can help him…

Or hear his last plea…

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“Don’t think, Don’t worry, Everything’s just fine”…

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He doesn’t know what…
What you want him to say…

Doesn’t even know…
How he is feeling today…

He doesn’t even know…
What or how to feel…

Yet you ask him to talk…
Ask him to reveal…

You ask him what…
What it is he is thinking…

But his mind is numb…
And his heart is sinking…

All of his life…
He’s kept his emotions at bay…

Don’t you see how easy it is…
Just to lock them away…

If he let them loose…
He would be terrified…

So he keeps them near…
It’s how he’s survived…

It doesn’t mean…
That he’s not keeping you close…

You are the person…
He is needing the most…

Sometimes he needs to be alone…
Open your eyes and see…

Somedays it’s not you…
It’s simply all he can be…

And he has to get through this…
But be true to himself…

So he is leaving the demons…
High on the shelf…

In his dreams they still haunt…
They will always replay…

But it’s a battle he will face…
Some other fucking day…

So please understand…
He can’t do what you do…

He does things his way…
It’s how he gets through…

It’s got him this far…
He’s got to go with his gut…

So the doors are all closed…
And all the windows are shut…

Today it is Black…
Tomorrow may be too…

But no matter what…
Remember he loves only you…

~

 

“And there is a light, don’t let it go out”…

Please welcome back Barb as a guest poet. Barb very kindly nominated this blog for the Versatile Blogger Award

As regular readers will know, I am humbled to receive these awards and I use it as an opportunity to showcase the nominators work.

However, you don’t need to nominate me for anything to guest poet, just drop me a line to eyewillnotcry@hotmail.co.uk and we can go from there!

You can read more of Barb’s work here: http://bjsscribbles.wordpress.com

I hope you enjoy the below
Cheers
J

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10000 emotions filed away in my heart,
For mine I tell you my heart is full of tears as I weep for you,
The darkness of night befalls me, my heart is so full of mixed emotions,
My mind is racing with words, mixed words, as I face this, silent night,
10000 emotions sit at the pit of my stomach waiting, weeping,
Mixed within my mind, a faith, waiting to be explored,
Woven, deep within my mind, giving me strength,
Deep whispers, echo this silent night, guiding me into the depths,
Of darkness that waited for me, for years I wanted to scream,
I wanted to understand, as I sunk deeper into the night,
Venomous words lingered in my brain for so long, like a nervous road map,
Hidden, for many years, waiting to be summoned, echoes of the past,
Nights, spellbound by the darkest nights, nights without form or wonder,
Weeping into my heart and mind were sorrow and pain, an apocalypse,
I could not explain, the mystic of my mind, confused, until I could forgive myself
10000 emotions filed away, years of sorrow and pain, filed away,
Images till now, words, reflections, sorrow and pain, solitude,
I had faith, all but perfect, yet to be explored, feelings,
I sought reality, I sought life, Oh! the wonders of life,
There is a way towards the light of life,
The minds conscience weaves a tale,
A ghostly shadow of the mind and heart, that appears at night,
Embrace them, the lost can be found, if let walk towards the light.
Have Faith Praise God….Amen

“Have you come here for forgiveness”…

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Basking in the shadows…
Where the sunset meets the sea…

Watching fallen angels dancing…
That’s where you’ll find me…

My story was totally fictitious…
Laced with fragments of truth…

And you read all about me…
But forgot me in your youth…

When the wind whispered my name…
You turned and chose not to hear…

Instead you closed the door on me…
Let false words fill your ears…

When the lightning showed the way…
You followed the wrong path…

Didn’t care about consequence…
Or give thought to the aftermath…

Now I’m the freedom you long for…
Whilst you’re locked deep inside…

Knowing you can never escape…
No matter how hard you tried…

You thought I was a madman…
And didn’t believe a single word…

Seeking proof that can’t be found…
In this cold and desolate world…

I’m insane and quite irrational…
That riddle you could not solve…

An answer that was so profound…
It tested your faith and resolve…

Yet I’m mystical and magical…
Like the girl with stunning eyes…

Nothing on this Earth compares…
And that thought just terrifies…

I’m that hidden personality…
That feeds off your darker side…

I know everything about you…
There is nothing you can hide…

I’m the hate inside your fury…
But the only love that’s true…

When you’re feeling so deceptive…
I’m your secret rendezvous…

I’m the story with no ending…
The thief that stole from time…

I know all your dirty secrets…
Witnessed all your wicked crimes…

I’m the cold breeze in the summer…
The rose growing in the snow…

I defied conventional wisdom…
Was the only truth you know…

Now it’s much too late for you…
The chance has passed and gone…

You are looking for forgiveness…
Where there is absolutely none…

Now I’m hiding in the shadows…
The Master of all you can see…

One day this world will end…
And you will finally believe…

~

“Read about the politician’s lover”…

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She was in love with two people,
in the same space and time…

She was attracted by the opposites,
she was pulled by the signs…

She was flying in the face,
of all she’d been taught…

The rules that she lived by and
her God given thoughts…

She’d given her heart completely,
connected with their minds…

But in searching for some answers,
only questions did she find…

What was this love anyway,
what did this love really mean…

And did something even exist,
when it’s felt but never seen…

Was this love a crime of passion,
or just a slow burning fire…

Filled with trinkets of deception,
laced with flashes of cruel desire…

Was it built upon the foundations,
of her need to feel wanted…

A place of simple sanctuary,
she could cling to and be bonded…

So she didn’t have to travel,
this cold Earth all alone…

And be haunted by the loneliness,
inside her heart and home…

Or was this just that feeling,
the Devil’s playground brings…

Which fooled her into thinking,
that sinners sometimes win…

Yet it felt much more than lust,
distorting her guilt-ridden mind…

Perhaps she could love two people,
without it being a crime…

But it caused so much heartache,
slowly sent her insane…

Everyday became a battle,
filled with so much pain…

And she couldn’t find the answers,
getting way out of her depth…

In desperation, she ended it all,
leaving behind a statement for the press…

~

“Somebody stepped inside your soul”…

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The little bird sits,
in the eye of the storm…

On a darkened rooftop,
all tattered and torn…

Her feathers all ruffled,
hiding new scars…

She’s looking for refuge,
under falling stars…

Searching for calm and
any kind of sanctuary…

Somewhere to hide,
until she can be free…

And it is all over,
when she will again fly…

In-between the sunset and
the dark moonlit sky…

But until that time,
the angry storm rages…

And each painful day,
writes new chapters and pages…

Of a complicated story,
where this little bird got lost…

Before finding herself,
without realising the cost…

As in a circle with three sides,
she got caught in-between…

And only pure sinners,
could feel what she’s seen…

As dodging the lightning,
became her awakening…

And a thirst for excitement,
became so very frightening…

Forcing a conclusion and
igniting Hell’s fire…

Which seeks out the truth,
as the flames reach higher…

Now sat on that rooftop,
it feels so out of control…

And the little bird attempts,
to reclaim her soul…

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“Don’t think, Don’t worry, Everything’s just fine”…

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~

He doesn’t know what…
What you want him to say…

Doesn’t even know…
How he is feeling today…

He doesn’t even know…
What or how to feel…

Yet you ask him to talk…
Ask him to reveal…

You ask him what…
What it is he is thinking…

But his mind is numb…
And his heart is sinking…

All of his life…
He’s kept his emotions at bay…

Don’t you see how easy it is…
Just to lock them away…

If he let them loose…
He would be terrified…

So he keeps them near…
It’s how he’s survived…

It doesn’t mean…
That he’s not keeping you close…

You are the person…
He is needing the most…

Sometimes he needs to be alone…
Open your eyes and see…

Somedays it’s not you…
It’s simply all he can be…

And he has to get through this…
But be true to himself…

So he is leaving the demons…
High on the shelf…

In his dreams they still haunt…
They will always replay…

But it’s a battle he will face…
Some other fucking day…

So please understand…
He can’t do what you do…

He does things his way…
It’s how he gets through…

It’s got him this far…
He’s got to go with his gut…

So the doors are all closed…
And all the windows are shut…

Today it is Black…
Tomorrow may be too…

But no matter what…
Remember he loves only you…

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