“I hope I never have to see you again”…

Please welcome “J” as tonight’s guest poet. You can read more of J’s work over at:

https://painkills2.wordpress.com/category/art-and-awe-therapy/

If you would like a guest poet slot, please email eyewillnotcry@hotmail.co.uk

Cheers

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Hard to understand
Turning down a friendship
Years of nice gestures
But you’re still pretentious

So many similarities
Very few differences
And so I wonder
What’s with the fences?

Is it my language?
Lack of religion?
Something I said
or something I did?

What could be so bad
that you refuse to see
We all need friends
From A to Z

Just want you to know
It’s not very nice
I’m only human
No matter my vice

Pretending we’re friends
Only when you need
something that others
don’t want to cede

Well, I’m tired of giving
Even though I expect
nothing in return
I still need respect

Wasting time to question
I’ll never know
Doesn’t really matter
I’m letting go

As a nice person
I wish you well
Never to meet again
The End

“At nights I’ve heard him screaming, through the candle flame”…

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There’s no one he can trust…
With his darkest desires…

His deepest black secrets…
And most intimate fires…

Nobody in his circle…
Not his friends or family…

Or acquaintances he’s met…
They’ll never be allowed to see…

The secret that he’s hiding…
The one he’s locked away…

A shameful side of his life…
He can’t bring himself to say…

Or tell the ones who know him…
Who love him for what he is…

Trouble would only follow…
If they knew this monster exists…

So he keeps it in the shadow…
Carries it wherever he goes…

Covers up his wicked sins…
Knows no one must ever know…

That his life is tainted…
By the death of innocent souls…

As a compelling thirst for blood…
Is needed to make his life whole…

A craving that’s stranger than fiction…
An obsession that’s out of control…

He finds it all much too easy…
He breathes in each departing soul…

A serial killer, this repeat offender…
Knows how to keep out of sight…

Perfected the art of misdirection…
Constantly staying out of the light…

Who could he ever confess to…
And who would ever believe…

That this elegant man is a killer…
Who spends his life trying to deceive…

And charm all who meet him…
Into believing he’s a trustful man…

But nothing’s further from the truth…
He’d strangle them with bare hands…

The only person he tried to tell…
Simply laughed into his face…

Told him not to be so stupid…
Before disappearing without a trace…

There’s no one he’d ever trust…
So he tends to simply mislead…

Commit his crimes in secret…
And smile as they scream and bleed…

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“I’m beginning to wonder, if it’s time for a change”…

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Time for a change,
to find a new song…

Time to go and
time to move on…

Time to end this and
no longer pretend…

Time to heal and
try to mend…

Time to forget and
just walk away…

Time to lock the box,
face it another day…

Time to erase and
end all the pain…

Time to finish and
try start again…

Time to figure out,
how to regain control…

Time to find peace,
restore a battered soul…

Time to extinguish the demons,
floating around the head…

Time to stop the voices,
ignore what they said…

Time to learn from,
all the past mistakes…

Time to understand,
the strength that will take…

Time to focus on,
what lies within…

Time to find strength,
find a way to begin…

Time to be cruel,
in order to be kind…

Time to not worry,
about what they will find…

Time to be brave and
time to be strong…

Time to admit,
it was so very wrong…

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“Or this could be Hell”…

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So, you didn’t make it…
Welcome to Hell…

Make yourself comfortable…
This is your own private cell…

Wrap this round your neck…
You’ve earned this chain…

A link for each of your sins…
You’ll experience them again…

One by One by One…
In technicoloured glory…

Each and every mistake…
In your sad, twisted story…

Because you never listened…
Never heeded the warnings…

You did not believe…
Just partied on till morning…

Thinking you were clever…
That you wouldn’t pay the price…

You did what you wanted…
Without any kind of sacrifice…

Doing it your own way…
And tarnishing your soul…

Did you think you were wise…
That you were in control…

And now you are here…
Beginning to perspire…

There’s no rest for the wicked…
As you burn in Hell’s fire…

Whilst the Demons dance…
To the Devil’s own groove…

They’re your eternal jailers…
Who’ll watch your every move…

As you are now damned…
For the rest of eternity…

And you will be broken…
You’ll be forced to your knees…

Living in Satan’s palace…
And getting sliced by his knife…

He’ll make you plead to go back…
But it’s to late to change your life…

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“This could be Heaven”…

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So, you finally made it…
Welcome to Heaven…

You hit the jackpot…
Seven, Seven, Seven…

This is the Promised Land…
Of milk and golden honey…

No need for any fear…
No need for any money…

Just relax and sit back…
Kick off your shoes…

Gaze at the rainbows…
Enjoy the stunning views…

As Six vestal virgins…
Wait on your every whim…

Whist you lounge at the pool…
Or jump in for a swim…

Because this is your prize…
The hope and the glory…

All you have earned…
Throughout your life’s story…

You are finally rewarded…
For a life without sin…

Walking that fine line…
Not letting your demons win…

And all that you wished for…
Is now eternally yours…

No need for purgatory…
We’ve unlocked the doors…

All that faith and trust…
You held deep in your heart…

Is now rewarded and repaid…
And this is just the start…

Of your eternal paradise…
Where dreams come true…

And the purest souls collide…
Mingling with other religions too…

Like one big happy family…
Now they are all dead…

You can now sit there…
And rest your weary head…

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“Like a stormy sky, it’s a sad song”…

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Maybe she just didn’t love you…

Maybe it was never meant to be…

Maybe she gave you every chance…

Maybe you just couldn’t see…

Maybe on some deep level…

Maybe she just didn’t connect…

Maybe you were both at fault…

Maybe now’s the time to forget…

Maybe you’ll learn from this lesson…

Maybe, but then again, maybe not…

Maybe that’s the way it goes…

Maybe you simply deserved all you got…

Maybe you can live with the regret…

Maybe you will accept this price…

Maybe someday you’ll ask forgiveness…

Maybe next time, you’ll think twice…

Maybe there was a reason…

Maybe you should try to find…

Maybe it’s right before you…

Maybe that’s why she was unkind…

Maybe she had every right…

Maybe it was all your fault…

Maybe she just retaliated…

Maybe in your wound, she rubbed salt…

Maybe that will make you think…

Maybe you should do all you can…

Maybe you will live life differently…

Maybe try to be a better man…

Maybe in another life…

Maybe you’ll meet her again…

Maybe then you’ll be better placed…

Maybe you will avoid further pain…

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“Trusting in the fire while the cruel flame burns”…

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Please, please persuade me…
Gently twist my arm…
Go on make me do it…
Can’t do any harm…

Softly say it to me…
Get inside my head…
Distort my blurred reality…
I’m just so easily led…

Am open to the thrill of it…
Just need a subtle push…
Down the dark garden path…
Behind that leafy bush…

Where no one else can see…
Or will ever know…
The secrets and the lies…
Within the sinful shadow…

Order me to do it…
Be so fucking forceful…
Make me trust and obey you…
You push, I promise I’ll pull…

Bind my slender wrists…
Blind my deceitful eyes…
Use your sharpened nails…
Take me by utter surprise…

Leave a lasting imprint…
Tattoo it on my soul…
Be the twisted lightning…
In life’s fucked up Black hole…

Be my forbidden distraction…
An oasis in the dark…
A secret only we can trust…
The place my guilt can park…

Fuel my very destruction…
So intense and so reckless…
It’s absorbing my very soul…
Hung on your entangled necklace…

Please will you persuade me…
You alone own the key…
I know you want to do it…
Just force me to my knees…

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“Dust to dust and fire to ashes”…

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Is he asleep…
Or is he awake…
Is this a dream…
And his reality fake…

Nothing makes sense…
His thoughts conflict…
Everything he’s touched…
Has just fallen to bits…

A mental disaster…
All of his making…
His head of confusion…
Leaves him stood shaking…

Afraid of his memories…
Regretting sinful desires…
He knows he’ll end up…
In Hell’s emotional fires…

On a one way ticket…
There will be no return…
He will be consumed…
Aware his soul will burn…

He doesn’t know when…
And he doesn’t know where…
So he stumbles through life…
Blinded by his despair…

As he’s stuck in a moment…
One fragment of time…
Replayed over and over…
But he can never rewind…

He can’t repair the damage…
Or pretend it’s not real…
All that’s been done…
Time just refuses to heal…

The hand that grabbed her…
By her slender throat…
Till her lifeless body…
Began to silently float…

Now she’s asleep…
And will never awake…
Her never ending dream…
His one big mistake…

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“The only thing you feel is vicious”…

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There’s a door inside his mind…
He kept it locked so tight…
Was afraid of what you’d find…
Hidden away from bright sunlight…

Never letting you see…
And never allowing you passed…
A wall built up from debris …
Historical bricks he amassed…

Playing in the branches of that tree…
Sometimes you saw a clown…
But he never wanted to be free…
Never dreamed you’d cut him down…

But hearing you confess…
And unleashing all your sin…
He couldn’t dare express…
The anguish he felt within…

Now he drives through tunnels…
There is no end in sight…
Just a never ending darkness…
No glimpse of pale moonlight…

The light became the dark…
The day you went away…
Your callous parting remark…
Began his hearts decay…

Its beat began to slow…
His blood just turned to ice…
The hate began to flow…
His soul now pays the price…

The world faded into Black…
His life in constant flux…
He just can’t seem to get it back…
And no longer gives a fuck…

Your words keep spinning round…
He replays them every day…
Quietly and without a sound…
One day, he swears, you’ll pay…

A dish that’s best served cold…
Or so they all do say…
Believe what has been foretold…
You’re the beast he’s out to slay…

It’s time for you to fear…
For anger and hate to spread…
Hear his message loud and clear…
He wishes you were dead…

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“I’m fed up of crying, my despair is dying, turning into rage”…

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Sometimes he’s left to question…
Is he alive or is he dead…
Because no one seems to listen…
Or understand a single word he said…

No one seems to notice…
Does anyone even care…
As the anger inside him boils away…
This ignorant world should beware…

Because the rage inside is building…
The colour Red is all he sees…
He’s trembling with pure anger…
He’s going to bring them to their knees…

He will force them all listen…
He’s got a lot to fucking say…
And like a nuclear explosion…
Innocent people may have to pay…

He needs to make a statement…
Knows actions speak louder than words…
He’ll pour petrol on the burning fire…
And kill all the high flying birds…

In his mind he’s always scheming…
How to implement his plan…
In his head it all makes perfect sense…
That’s where this all began…

He has the story written…
Each chapter eased his pain…
His words described the ending…
The battle scarred hero left insane…

It’s going to be his masterpiece…
His legacy on this cold Earth…
That will teach the bastards…
And prove his soul has worth…

But for now he’s left to question…
How the knife got in his hand…
Why blood is pouring from his wrists…
They’ll listen now, but they’ll never understand…

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