“She’ll come slowly rising, on the air”…

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She found the letter…
And read the words…

She fell to the ground…
Her cry scattered the birds…

She laid there in shock…
Just couldn’t take it all in…

She didn’t know what to do…
Didn’t know where to begin…

She was enveloped in sadness…
Became shrouded in black…

She couldn’t ever accept…
He was never coming back…

She became so isolated…
Felt so goddamned trapped…

She was blinded by the pain…
Knew she would never adapt…

She loved him so much…
But felt so empty inside…

She craved his smell…
Needed his hand to guide…

She felt so alone…
Like life had no meaning…

She became a shadow…
Only seen in the evening…

She could not see…
Knew the silence would last…

She couldn’t move on…
Was entombed in the past…

She had believed in forever…
And dreamt of growing old…

She could not cope…
As depression took hold…

She lost the will to live…
And decided to get out…

She swallowed the pills…
Without hesitation or doubt…

Then she found him again…
As he sat waiting for her…

The couple finally reunited…
In Death’s cold, hazy blur…

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“Hear my words that I might teach you”…

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There’s no way you can kill me…
Because I’m already dead…

A ghostly flicker of a shadow…
Who resides within your head…

Only you can see me…
No one else can ever hear…

I’m your soul’s companion…
The one that you should fear…

I know what you are thinking…
I see what your evil eye sees…

I plant the thoughts into your mind…
All your actions are down to me…

I made you do the bad things…
I let you do all that was good…

And when it came to the evil…
I was the spark on the firewood…

I’m the unseen puppet master…
Controlling all that I choose…

If you ever tried to break free…
You know what you would lose…

All you have to do is obey…
Follow each and every command…

I’ll guide you at the crossroads…
Navigate you through the sinking sands…

But the moment that you cross me…
The minute you try to ignore…

I’ll drag you to a tormented Hell…
And you’ll regret forever more…

So don’t even think about it…
Just do exactly as you’re told…

Accept we’re in this together…
And count the lives we’ve stole…

As you can’t fucking kill me…
I reside within your head…

One day you will silence me…
But not before you’re dead…

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“But in your dreams, whatever they be”…

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She knows the words…
But not their meaning…

Hears them whilst sleeping…
Amidst all the screaming…

That soundtracks the night…
When she closes her eyes…

Slipping into the nightmare…
That makes her cry…

The one where she’s lost…
And so very alone…

In the middle of nowhere…
Running far from her home…

And the ones she loves…
Those she holds dear…

They cannot find her…
And they’ll never hear…

Her desperate shouts…
Echoing through the night…

No one can save her…
She is alone in this fight…

Against her dark demons…
Who cause her distress…

And haunt her nights…
Whilst clawing at her dress…

In the midst of blackness…
Rendering her sight blind…

As she runs in circles…
So desperate to find…

Some hope of escape…
A tiny chink of light…

That would finally bring…
An end to this fight…

But the words keep coming…
So softly spoken…

And the beast with wings…
Has now awoken…

She hides out of sight…
And silently screams…

But she’ll never be free…
Within this poisonous dream…

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“All the feelings that I had, hard for you to understand”…

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A walking contradiction,
A constant stream of lies…

Hidden behind a smile and
a hypnotising pair of eyes…

Telling all the stories,
that you want to hear…

Ones that make you laugh and
the ones that shed a tear…

Just for entertainment,
doing it to be heard…

To never be forgotten,
as they hang on every word…

But all of it is fantasy,
nothing said is real…

It’s all just a side show,
in order to feel…

There is something more,
more to this cruel world…

As each day slowly passes and
the monotony unfurls…

Trying to feel something,
other than the pain…

Trying to feel the warmth,
instead of ice cold rain…

That numbs all the senses and
leads to every single day…

Becoming so monotonous,
in each and every way…

But by twisting and distorting,
whilst playing with broken mirrors…

A different world is created,
one that hides all the fears…

And allows space to function,
in such a dysfunctional life…

Allowing a tinge of excitement,
amidst the mundane strife…

And for stolen moments,
giving freedom to the soul…

To walk in shoes of others and
for a moment, feel in control…

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“He didn’t notice that the lights had changed”…

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He opens his eyes,
to Red sky in the morning…

Understanding the message,
he recognises the warning…

Wrapped in natures beauty,
but steeped in superstition…

His heart fills with fear,
at what may come to fruition…

And floods his weak body,
with a nauseating stress…

Such a paralysing power,
that leaves him so helpless…

And open to an attack,
from dark forces within…

The voices in his head and
the Sirens who sing…

As he tries to block them out,
tries so hard to function…

Amidst all the wreckage,
praying for an injunction…

So he can sit on a swing,
as the day slowly passes…

Watching the gliding birds,
through Zen like glasses…

Listening to the sound,
of the creaking, unoiled chain…

Lost in that moment,
with peace in his brain…

A million miles away,
from all that he knows…

The pain in his heart,
like a cancer, it grows…

As the scars he carries,
amongst the mental stresses…

Colour his daily view and
very slowly depresses…

And as that blood Red sky,
brings its visible warning…

He prays he’ll make it through,
to face another morning…

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“There’s someone in my head, but it’s not me”…

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It’s cold and it’s dark…

No sunlight in there…

Alone with his thoughts…

All alone with his fears…

Just those four walls…

And his mental cell…

An inescapable prison…

The never-ending Hell…

With voices that echo…

Deep inside his head…

Sending him crazy…

Torture, drip-fed…

Around and around…

Around the fuckers go…

Will they ever stop…

He really doesn’t know…

Laughing one minute…

Then they’re screaming…

Is he really awake…

Or is he just dreaming…

And all this is fake…

Just one big illusion…

That fucks with his mind…

Leading to much confusion…

Punching his stomach…

Leaving such dull ache…

While the sickness and nausea….

Prevent any hope of escape…

Leaving him feeling helpless…

And spinning his wheels…

A life that’s never lived…

And one that’s unable to feel…

As there is no way out…

Not now, not ever…

The darkness has engulfed…

The blackness is forever…

Because it’s so very dark…

No hope exists in there…

And every fibre of his soul…

Is crippled by the fear…

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“Talking with my brother, when the lights went out”…

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I don’t think about him…

Every single day…

Since Neptune came…

And took him away…

Filling his lungs…

In that watery grave…

It happened so fast…

With no chance to save…

A life extinguished…

In the blink of an eye…

A grieving family…

Left simply asking why…

Why was he chosen…

Out of everyone…

What was the reason…

Just what had he done…

For the beautiful mermaids…

To refuse him assistance…

And hiding their eyes…

As he fought for existence…

Only Eleven years old…

With an innocent smile…

No hint of corruption…

Just a happy child…

Who loved his life…

And all that it brought…

Yet the Gods wanted him…

No matter how we fought…

But in the midst of it all…

Trauma hit my head…

Not really understanding…

He really was dead…

But by learning to lock…

The painful memories away…

Dividing into little boxes…

To be faced, maybe one day…

Then perhaps that event…

Shaped who I really am…

A boy forever trapped…

Within the emotionless man…

Who doesn’t think about things…

In the way others do…

As it’s painful to remember…

The little boy who turned blue…

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