Maybe…

pain

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This pain will one day pass…
And your eyes will begin to see…

The world spinning around you…
Is still full of wonder & fantasy…

And the hurt you are now feeling…
Will heal in the fullness of time…

Becoming your heart’s scar tissue…
A lump that will always remind…

Of the time when you flew so high…
Stretched your wings amongst the birds…

Danced between thunder & lightning…
Allowed electricity to ignite your world…

Taking you to some places…
You never thought you’d go…

Tasting such experiences…
You never thought you’d know…

And emotions never felt before…
Due to a version of yourself unseen…

Someone who sat deep within you…
Yet you never had the chance to be…

But now she walks alongside you…
The two of you have become one…

Now you face the challenge…
Of keeping her out of the sun…

Making sure she’s quietly hidden…
Forcing her out of plain sight…

Because if reality ever sees her…
Your mind will lose this fight…

And then life won’t be worth living…
Because it won’t be worth the cost…

As everything you know & love…
Will be shattered & will be lost…

So don’t let her colour your world…
Prevent her from taking control…

Be strong try to fight her…
Because the prize is your very soul…

As I promise this pain will pass…
And your eyes will slowly see…

That what maybe seemed so exciting…
Was always just a vivid fantasy…

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“He was caught in the middle of a desperate fight”…

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Stood in the moonlight,
not making a sound…

Her broken heart weeping,
her tears hitting the ground…

Remembering the words,
that fell from his mouth…

The cruel words spoken,
before he headed south…

And out of her sight,
leaving her all alone…

To start a new chapter,
going out on his own…

Trying to move on and
begin his new life…

Leaving her stranded with,
a soul full of strife…

Unsure of the next steps and
unsteady on her feet…

Like a broken up jigsaw,
she felt so incomplete…

As she loved him so much,
with her heart and her soul…

And only holding his hand,
ever made her feel whole…

But she pushed him away,
with so many insecurities…

And with her jealous anger,
she was impossible to please…

Leaving him battered, broken and
driven totally insane…

Till his patience snapped and
the day finally came…

Leaving his past behind,
he disappeared into the distance…

As she dissolved into the shadows,
questioning her existence…

Now she stands in the moonlight,
not making a sound…

Her broken heart weeping,
with no hope to be found…

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“I began to lose control”…

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It whispers through the trees…
Bringing the storm behind it…

It’s in the corner of your eye…
Hoping that you’ll submit…

Its voice is always talking…
On a mission to distract…

It takes pleasure in your pain…
And the way that you react…

You’ve tried to out run it…
But it’s always been there…

Hidden in the Moon’s soft glow…
And the Sun’s harsh glare…

It’s watching and it’s waiting…
But never letting you breathe…

As it twists and it distorts…
Begging you to receive…

And give in to its darkness…
Be consumed by it all…

It wants to enter inside you…
And bear witness as you fall…

With a morbid curiosity…
As it assumes full control…

No matter how hard you fight…
It will take over your soul…

You won’t be the first…
And you will not be the last…

It’s had so many victims…
From the present and the past…

You will become one of many…
Who’ve had their soul removed…

Don’t allow it to enter…
You don’t have anything to prove…

It will knock at your window…
And taunt you from afar…

It will tempt and persuade…
Till the door is open ajar…

Allowing it to attack…
Allowing it to consume…

Because it will begin your ending…
And it will bring your doom…

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“And these memories lose their meaning”…

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There are moments in life…
You can never live again…

Moments of pure joy…
Moments of searing pain…

Moments of distraction…
Moments of sinful pleasure…

And moments of deep regret…
That haunt you at your leisure…

There are moments of hurt…
That rip out your heart…

Moments of pure insanity…
Never planned for at the start…

There are moments you create…
And moments that just happen…

The ones you didn’t foresee…
But they left you totally flattened…

There are moments you captured…
Now embedded in your brain…

The ones that you dream about…
Watch again, frame by frame…

And moments that backfired…
That became your nightmares…

They haunt you in your sleep…
Pushing you into deep despair…

There are moments you cherish…
Ones that make you smile…

Moments when life had meaning…
And it all felt so worthwhile…

Those moments you rewind…
The ones you try to replay…

Not the moments of regret…
That must be locked away…

And there was a moment of clarity…
When it all came together…

When you realised your path…
Was the route to stormy weather…

And you came to a crossroads…
Where you finally had to choose…

Was this the life you wanted…
Time to stick or twist, bust and lose…

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“Does anyone have a number here, for letting go”…

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Speeding through the water…
Cutting like a knife…

Leaving behind all troubles…
The memories and the strife…

And constant little reminders…
Of the dark path of regret…

Whilst dancing with distraction…
That’s been so hard to forget…

To an island lost in time…
Where no one knows your face…

Surrounded by total strangers…
Living life at a slower pace…

Who take you as they find you…
No trace of your history…

Where any mistakes made…
Remain a total mystery…

Out of sight, out of mind…
A chance to lock the box…

Focus on the here and now…
Allow the past to be lost…

Wiped from your memory…
Like some bad. bad dream…

That interrupts your sleep…
Making you silently scream…

Wishing it never happened…
Knowing you can’t be cleansed…

As all the deep dark secrets…
Became sins that simply stained…

The inside of your mind…
And deep within your soul…

Etched inside your spirit…
A sadness you can’t console…

But on this tiny island…
There is a chance to heal…

Pretend it never happened…
Remember how to feel…

Be reminded what it was…
To carry pure innocence…

A feeling so very powerful…
A feeling so damn intense…

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“And we know there’s no need to forgive”…

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The little bird glides…
Upon broken wings…

Burdened by pain…
And unable to sing…

Not able to focus…
On the world around…

Her ears are deaf…
Can’t hear a sound…

Consumed by the black…
That covers her eyes…

Distorts all her senses…
She’s blind as she flies…

Into the huge storm…
That rages ahead…

Battling her demons…
Who want her dead…

Struggling to find…
A sanctuary shelter…

A safe place to land…
Someone to help her…

To tend her wounds…
See her though the night…

Ease all her worries…
Listen to her plight…

Someone she can trust…
With her inner fears…

Hold her so very tight…
And dry all her tears…

Instead she is left…
So cold and all alone…

Far far away from…
Where she calls home…

And the one she left…
Who broke her heart…

Leaving her needing…
To make a fresh start…

Where she can begin…
To rebuild and live…

Never, ever intending…
To look back and forgive…

“When lonely days turn to lonely nights”…

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She got inside his bed…
Crawled underneath his skin…

A fire inside his head…
She always plays to win…

The ultimate distraction…
She infects his world…

Then waits for his reaction…
As her twisted game unfolds…

She got inside his heart…
And took away all feeling…

She knew it from the start…
And kept the fish hook reeling…

With her sharp nails entrenched…
Deep inside his back…

Her thirst is never quenched…
She plots her next attack…

She got inside his mind…
Is forever in his thoughts…

Despite words so unkind…
He ignores the lessons taught…

No matter what they say…
He won’t listen to reason…

Just sits waiting for the day…
That she comes to see him…

But she’s got away with murder…
The destruction of his soul…

The more he wants, she’s colder…
Her heart is Black as coal…

Evil, stupid and shameful…
That’s how he feels inside…

Yet she makes him feel so powerful…
When their forbidden lips collide…

Those moments are so fleeting…
But sweet as honeycomb…

Next time they are meeting…
He’ll take the long way home…

He knows that this is madness…
And it’s driving him insane…

But he’s addicted to her sadness…
Her servant, he remains…

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