“Tonight I’m gonna hurt, everyone I love”…

wall

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He was far too selfish…
And was far too old…

To care about others…
If the truth were told…

After all this time…
After all these years…

Trying to please them…
And ease their fears…

But it was all one way…
It felt so fucking draining…

Despite best intentions…
He kept miss aiming…

His words would backfire…
Each and every day…

It left him feeling…
In a frustrated daze…

Until one dark night…
He sought distraction…

A sympathetic ear…
Or forbidden interaction…

And fuelled by alcohol…
Mixed with self-pity…

Seduced by the lights…
Of the perfect city…

Just a single look…
From a total stranger…

Laced with dark sin…
And fraught with danger…

Left him breathless…
Spinning out of control…

And in a hotel room…
The Devil took his soul…

As vodka lips collided…
He got lost at sea…

And his Lust filled eyes…
Simply could not see…

The damage he’d done…
The price he would pay…

The guilty secret he’d carry…
Until his dying day…

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“You break me down to pieces, watch me come undone”…

piper

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Why did you do it…
Why did you come back…

Subjecting my world…
To a sustained attack…

Casting your spells…
And poisoning my mind…

Is this just a game to you…
Why act so unkind…

You know that I’m weak…
You know my Achilles heel…

Yet you exploit my feelings…
Put me though this ordeal…

Does it make you smile…
To inflict all this pain…

Has it become your mission…
To drive me insane…

And make me pay…
For all my mistakes…

Is this what you want…
Is this what it takes…

Getting your thrills…
By watching me suffer…

Was I really that bad…
Hurt you like no other…

Leaving those scars…
So deep and so wide…

Hurting so badly…
Omnipresent, deep inside…

That have left you damaged…
With a thirst for revenge…

And you know how to get it…
You know I’ll descend…

Because I’m an addict…
And you are my drug…

Which makes it so easy…
For you to smile so smug…

And taste your victory…
Over and over again…

Getting off on my torment…
Getting high on my pain…

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“There is a girl I used to know”…

art

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She was the exception…
She broke all your rules…

That tiny fallen angel…
With a tendency to bruise…

Who had unrivalled beauty…
With the brains to match…

You should have stayed away…
Should have only watched…

Keeping a safe distance…
Instead you grew too close…

And in the lingering shadows…
You were hit by Lust’s arrows…

As her smile lit up the darkness…
And her eyes just hypnotised…

You fell hook, line and sinker…
Bought into Lust’s sweet lies…

She cast a spell upon you…
Made you think it was all true…

And you fell so fucking deeply…
Into an ocean of neon blue…

That felt so warm and safe…
Where mermaids swam silently…

Your heart was bound and captured…
Your eyes too blind to see…

Becoming locked in limbo…
In between the dark and light…

A place you couldn’t escape from…
And it haunted you at night…

Where it all seemed so perfect…
And the beast was not a fool…

Where there was no need…
To act so fucking cool…

Like a poor man’s James Dean…
A rebel without a cause…

You ignored the true reality…
Overlooked all of your flaws…

And it always ends the same…
But even though it’s far behind…

Those moments that you shared…
Still weigh heavy on your mind…

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“But half of me, deserves everything he gets”…

Hiding_in_the_Shadows_by_mashalevene

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He’s found a way to live…
Devoid of all emotion…

A simple trick of the mind…
Sets the wheels in motion…

Locking it all away…
Preventing any tears…

That would flood his eyes…
If he remembered all the years…

The good times and the bad…
All his stupid mistakes…

On the road that he has travelled…
The decisions that he’s made…

In the search of some distraction…
Whilst hiding in plain sight…

But distorting his reality…
Under cover of the night…

Where he becomes another…
Assumes that personality…

The one that he keeps hidden…
So no one else can see…

Like Dr Jekyll and Mr Hyde…
At the flick of a switch…

Sees a quick transformation…
Like a spell cast by a witch…

Turning to the dark side…
Tuning into evil thoughts…

Listening to the demons…
Forgetting all he’s been taught…

And living in the shadows…
Searching for like minds…

Those who understand him…
Not judging what they find…

But then he forgets it all…
In the light of the morning sun…

Pretends it never happened…
And moves on, starts to run…

Like a scared little child…
A boy just like Peter Pan…

Who never really grew up…
Or understood life’s plan…

Trapped in a prison…
His own private cell…

He can never escape it…
Some days it feels like Hell…

So he’s now found a way…
To live without emotion…

It’s how he exists…
It’s the path he has chosen…

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“And we’ll all be lonely tonight and lonely tomorrow”…

rainw

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Walking through the rain…
In the city of the dead…

A thousand years of history…
A million tears shed…

Dreams that have crumbled…
Trampled under the feet…

Of a weary population…
Who no longer see it…

Passing by the tombstones…
And the inscribed names…

Never stopping to wonder…
Focused only on their shame…

The burden they each carry…
Inside their sinful hearts…

Struggling through the day…
As monotony once again starts…

Like automated robots…
With a program to follow…

Missing the point of life…
Hearts wooden and hollow…

In a world that’s become…
About the here and now…

Obsessed with consumerism…
And the latest cash cow…

It wasn’t always like this…
It used to mean much more…

A world filled with pride…
That only exists in folklore…

Now stories are passed down…
Laced with mild frustration…

Falling on the deaf ears…
Of this current generation…

About what was once a kingdom…
That’s forever buried and lost…

Whilst the beaten and damned…
Quietly sit and count the cost…

Under a dark rain cloud…
In the city of the dead…

Where no one hears the screaming…
Or a single word that’s said…

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“Don’t you try, to bend him until he breaks”…

rose1

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Eyes are burning…
Fired with anger…

The danger levels…
Now red, not amber…

Questioning sanity…
Running from it all…

When Karma strikes…
The mighty will fall…

In a game of chess…
Where winners lose…

And the taste of victory…
Simply lights the fuse…

Causing destruction…
Heartache and pain…

Where nothing survives…
Or will ever be the same…

And cruel words spoken…
Leave permanent scars…

Infecting with a poison…
Blacking out the stars…

Allowing the darkness…
To once again descend…

And open the void…
Where reality bends…

In a story that grows…
Into distorted fiction…

With a final chapter…
Laced with friction…

But deceiving the reader…
And hiding the truth…

It wasn’t always this way…
But there is no proof…

Only the present…
The here and the now…

Where lightning strikes…
And the characters row…

Always striving for…
The very last word…

Whilst the heart of the matter…
Remains twisted and blurred…

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“Don’t you try, to bend him until he breaks”…

rose1

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Eyes are burning…
Fired with anger…

The danger levels…
Now red, not amber…

Questioning sanity…
Running from it all…

When Karma strikes…
The mighty will fall…

In a game of chess…
Where winners lose…

And the taste of victory…
Simply lights the fuse…

Causing destruction…
Heartache and pain…

Where nothing survives…
Or will ever be the same…

And cruel words spoken…
Leave permanent scars…

Infecting with a poison…
Blacking out the stars…

Allowing the darkness…
To once again descend…

And open the void…
Where reality bends…

In a story that grows…
Into distorted fiction…

With a final chapter…
Laced with friction…

But deceiving the reader…
And hiding the truth…

It wasn’t always this way…
But there is no proof…

Only the present…
The here and the now…

Where lightning strikes…
And the characters row…

Always striving for…
The very last word…

Whilst the heart of the matter…
Remains twisted and blurred…

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“Without doubt, it is true, she was the only love you knew”…

 

rain

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It’s really you
The long lost one…

Who left me standing…
Slowly coming undone…

And falling apart
Body, mind and soul…

Sat in a dark corner
Losing all control…

Becoming numb
To the world around…

Not able to function
Or articulate a sound…

Lost in the darkness
A depressive whirlpool…

That sucked me under
Like a love-struck fool…

Who couldn’t see a way
To get back on track

Unable to function
In a world of Black…

Down a rabbit hole
With no sign of Alice

Just dark thoughts
Of death and malice…

And there you are
Now stood before me…

Without a care
For my painful story…

Barely recognising
My haunted face

And as for love
There is no trace…

As you left me battered…
Bruised and bloodied

Incapable of feeling
Love for anybody…

You broke my heart…
My spirit and my soul…

Without a care
For what you stole…

Fuck you…

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“What I want, is everything to clear”…

angel

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“Is this what you want?”
she quietly said…

Then searched for a sign,
as her words entered his head…

Where he assessed the situation,
within the darkened room…

Another sinful interaction,
another nail in his tomb…

As he admired her beauty,
her matching underwear…

And under lust’s influence,
he really shouldn’t have cared…

But the voices began talking,
distracting from the moment…

And stood at a crossroads,
he really couldn’t comment…

He wasn’t sure what he wanted,
but she really was all his…

This stunning fucking Goddess,
like a Queen Mermaid fish….

Surrounded by an aura,
like no other he’d met…

From the minute he saw her,
all common sense began to melt…

And in that stolen moment,
his fantasies became real…

But it wasn’t like the movies,
there was more to this deal…

The heavy weight of guilt,
the magnitude of it all…

He was high above the clouds,
it would be a long, long fall…

And pausing for a breath,
he tried to soak it all in…

Burned the vision in his mind,
and then tried to begin…

But his words were futile,
the feeling just overwhelmed him…

And in a moment of weakness,
began a night of pure sin…

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“She’ll be your essence, she’ll be your blood”…

bloog

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There’s always an exception…

An exception to his rules…

Rules that shouldn’t be broken…

As broken hearts get split in two…

Leaving two hundred million reasons…

Reasons which all got twisted…

Twisted to fit his dark desires…

Desires that just kept on burning…

Burning like stars in the sky…

A sky that was once so peaceful…

So peaceful with sweet dreams…

But dreams kept on recurring…

Recurring with thoughts and themes…

Themes of a forbidden desire…

A desire for the one he couldn’t have…

Have forever as his true love…

A love that could have been so wild…

As wild temptations hung around…

Hung around his crazy life…

A life he lived within his head…

The head that burned beneath the Sun…

A Sun shining darker than before…

Before he broke the rule that said…

Said “do not go where demons tread”

Tread carefully and please beware…

Beware that this isn’t meant to be…

Be mindful of her playful heart…

A heart not pure but sometimes kind…

The kind of girl who’ll destroy this time…

But time and distance will bring peace…

Peace in his soul that should release…

Release the demons who still taunt…

Taunt him since he broke the rule…

The rule now written in her blood…

Blood that covers both his hands…

Hands that he could not control…

Control his actions and lost a soul…

Soul that will now burn in Hell…

Hell… where rules do not exist…

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