“Now you’re just somebody that I used to know”…

So the entries for the poetry challenge are coming thick and fast – I promise to get them all up when I can!

Barb wanted to go back to “her” side for this entry – read more of her stuff here:  bjsscribbles.wordpress.com

Cheers

J

alone

Now that you are someone I used to know I can tell you

Now that you are someone I used to know I can tell you,
I told myself you were right for me,
Now and then I think of when we were together,
I ached for your love,
I was happy just to be near you,
Never imagining a time would come,
When I could feel lonely in your company,
I still remember the early years,
Now and then

Now that you are someone I used to know, I can tell you,
There was a sadness in my heart towards the end,
It was an addictive sadness about nothing,
I could see the end was near,
I found I could not make sense of my life,
I was glad when it was over

Now and then you come back to me in my dreams,
Having me believe it was all my fault,
I shake myself, I want the dreams to go away,
I don’t wanna see those dreams anymore,
Your words, Your voice, come back to me,
Over and over, and make me shudder,
I just don’t wanna see those dreams anymore,
Now that you are someone I used to know

Now that you are someone I used to know, I can tell you,
You cut me off every time I spoke,
Made out like arguments never happened,
We became a shadow of our past,
You treated me like a stranger in my house and that was rough,
You were two people, one sober gentle, one drunk angry,
You chose words that cut through my self being,
Your eyes were like glass each day of our lives

Now that you are someone I used to know, I can tell you,
I had to walk away, I did not trust the sober gentle one anymore,
There was an unspoken silence each day, nothing solved,
I did not want anything, I could not live the life no longer,
I just wanted my self respect,
Lost in addictive sadness for many years,
You wanted to be friends, I heard,
But I could not

Now I can tell you, I live in a gentle world,
Fending for myself,
A simple life,
Just me and my dogs,
Solitude, just a few friends, learning to live again,
Where I spend my nights and days with my dogs,
Now that you are someone I used to know, I have told you.

“She’s the angel of small death and the codeine scene”…

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She tries to find beauty,
in almost everything…

As she immerses herself,
in her life’s darkest sins…

The guilty feelings and
tears she’s cried…

In-between the Red and Black,
is where she now resides…

Ignoring all the voices,
who dictate right from wrong…

Dancing through life her way and
writing lyrics to her own song…

Enjoying moments she’s stolen,
on life’s wild, wild side…

Trying to focus outwards,
not on the inside…

Learning to draw strength,
where others only feel fear…

Welcoming her demons and
now keeping them near…

Dancing with the Devil,
whilst playing with his fire…

Elevating her tattered soul,
higher, higher and higher…

Gambling all she has left,
on following a dream…

That is forever recurring,
but it’s not what it seems…

As she’s driven on,
in the midst of hidden pain…

And if she let it defeat her,
she would simply go insane…

Because she’s broken inside,
like a jigsaw missing pieces…

The result of his lies and
the sum of his beatings…

So she looks for distraction,
in absolutely everything…

It’s the only way she can ever,
forget his bitter sting…

~

“Now and then I think of all the times you screwed me over”…

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You didn’t care
for her emotions…

What she said
or how she felt…

She was just a puppet
whose strings you
manipulated and held…

She was like a fool…
Obeying your rule…
No matter how cruel….

Bending to your will…

As you blurred the lines…

She chased you, yet still
you remained…

So cold and so sane…

Amidst the madness…
And her whole hearted
sadness…

You distracted…
You then distorted…
Until finally she resorted…

To claiming your cold, cold heart…

As her trophy, her prize…

Spellbinding your
eyes…

She finally saw through your
lies…

Unwrapped your soul…
Broke away from your hold…

Finding an escape…
Making no mistake…

And never looked back…

To where days were
so Black…

You forced her to
attack…

And then walk away…

With a regret that
stays…

Frozen in ice…

Paying such a
high price…

But she no longer thinks
of you…

Or those memories
so fucking cruel…

And you no longer rule…

Her heart…

~

Photo credit by http://www.fotolog.com/nija_dark_soul/50412800/

“Now and then I think of all the times you screwed me over”…

1267543097374_f

~

You didn’t care
for her emotions…

What she said
or how she felt…

She was just a puppet
whose strings you
manipulated and held…

She was like a fool…
Obeying your rule…
No matter how cruel….

Bending to your will…

As you blurred the lines…

She chased you, yet still
you remained…

So cold and so sane…

Amidst the madness…
And her whole hearted
sadness…

You distracted…
You then distorted…
Until finally she resorted…

To claiming your cold, cold heart…

As her trophy, her prize…

Spellbinding your
eyes…

She finally saw through your
lies…

Unwrapped your soul…
Broke away from your hold…

Finding an escape…
Making no mistake…

And never looked back…

To where days were
so Black…

You forced her to
attack…

And then walk away…

With a regret that
stays…

Frozen in ice…

Paying such a
high price…

But she no longer thinks
of you…

Or those memories
so fucking cruel…

And you no longer rule…

Her heart…

~

Photo credit by http://www.fotolog.com/nija_dark_soul/50412800/

“Now and then I think of all the times you screwed me over”…

1267543097374_f

~

You didn’t care
for her emotions…

What she said
or how she felt…

She was just a puppet
whose strings you
manipulated and held…

She was like a fool…
Obeying your rule…
No matter how cruel….

Bending to your will…

As you blurred the lines…

She chased you, yet still
you remained…

So cold and so sane…

Amidst the madness…
And her whole hearted
sadness…

You distracted…
You then distorted…
Until finally she resorted…

To claiming your cold, cold heart…

As her trophy, her prize…

Spellbinding your
eyes…

She finally saw through your
lies…

Unwrapped your soul…
Broke away from your hold…

Finding an escape…
Making no mistake…

And never looked back…

To where days were
so Black…

You forced her to
attack…

And then walk away…

With a regret that
stays…

Frozen in ice…

Paying such a
high price…

But she no longer thinks
of you…

Or those memories
so fucking cruel…

And you no longer rule…

Her heart…

~

Photo credit by http://www.fotolog.com/nija_dark_soul/50412800/