“Put your ray gun to my head”…

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Twisting…
Falling…
Can you hear the maker calling…

Confusing…
Confessing…
Is your faith, never ending…

Abandoning…
Denouncing…
Consequences are so frightening…

Fighting…
Cheating…
Stabbed heart is forever bleeding…

Something…
Nothing…
Bitter soul has lost all feeling…

Floating…
Drowning…
This cruel world is overwhelming…

Crying…
Flying…
Inside we’re all simply dying…

Losing…
Refusing…
Come on now, who on earth you fooling…

Listening…
Talking…
Ghost of the blackstar, forever haunting…

Waiting…
Watching…
Those electric eyes are always stalking…

RIP David Bowie…

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“Ground control to Major Tom, your circuits dead, there’s something wrong”…

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He lives his life…
Like Walter Mitty…
Each dark night…
A different city…
Finding courage…
Round every corner…
To be extraordinary…
Not a life mourner…
Each new adventure…
Carefullly designed…
With colours so vivid…
They fucking blind…
And a beautiful girl…
Upon his arm…
Keeping her safe…
Away from harm…
Then leaving her…
As he moves on…
To another heartbeat…
And a different song…

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But it’s not real…
It’s all in his head…
On the darker days…
He never leaves his bed…
The depression takes hold…
Grips him deep inside…
And for each black moment…
His Eye Will Not Cry…
Refusing to release…
Sealed up so tight…
As he fights his demons…
Every single night…
But no one sees…
And no one cares…
So he keeps it hidden…
As he could never share…
Because they won’t get it…
Or begin to understand…
How his life changed…
The day he lost her hand…

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“Put your ray gun to my head”…

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Twisting…
Falling…
Can you hear the Devil calling…

Confusing…
Confessing…
Is your faith, never ending…

Abandoning…
Denouncing…
Consequences are so frightening…

Fighting…
Cheating…
Stabbed heart is forever bleeding…

Something…
Nothing…
Bitter soul has lost all feeling…

Floating…
Drowning…
This cruel world is overwhelming…

Crying…
Flying…
Inside we’re all simply dying…

Losing…
Refusing…
Come on now, who the fuck you fooling…

Listening…
Talking…
Ghost of a man forever walking…

Waiting…
Watching…
Those electric eyes are always stalking…

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“We may lose and we may win”…

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So, in the midst of a busy week that has thrown up more questions than answers on a personal matter, this blog was nominated for an award. Nominated twice actually, which really made me smile and was quite humbling.

It is not the first time; you may remember that previously, the lovely Nina from http://wordsthatflowlikewater.wordpress.com/2013/06/06/inspiring-the-very-inspiring-blogger-award/  Nominated this blog for the “Very Inspiring Blog” award – which was really nice of her.

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This achievement has now been followed up by both Richard from http://richardankerswrites.wordpress.com/2013/08/05/the-versatile-blogger-award/ and Christine from http://crissyb315.wordpress.com/2013/08/05/the-versatile-blogger-award/ nominating this blog for the “Versatile blogger award”.  Which again, is really nice and I am truly humbled.

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Both these awards come with things that need to be done and I have to admit, I am pretty poor at these – however, the fact that these awards come from wordpress peers does mean a lot and whilst I have little of interest about myself to do any sort of list, I do feel the need to spread the word of others blogs.

The below are 10 blogs that I read and follow – and I would encourage you to try them out for size – these are just a snapshot as I follow a huge amount – so if your blog isn’t below, it is not reflection on you – more an opportunity.

Please leave a comment and let people know where they can find you – this could be an opportunity for all of us to build up our wordpress base? Not sure if this will even work, but don’t be shy – we all want to be read – even if we do not think what we produce is worth reading!

So, here is a snapshot in addition to the 3 above and in no order:

http://stevehi312.wordpress.com/

http://helenvalentina.com/

http://shakeyourtailfeathers.wordpress.com/

http://busymindthinking.com/

http://kwicksand.wordpress.com/

http://apurvakj.wordpress.com/

http://sagedoyle.wordpress.com/

http://thedrugstorenotebook.co/

http://randomblurting.wordpress.com

https://morganlefaysblog.wordpress.com/

So, a song to leave this ramble – I watched an Eagles documentary last night and really enjoyed it, so have a few tunes floating round in my head – this one is a message for the weekend – “Take it easy” – no more words needed – well, unless you wish to comment!

Enjoy

“It is as it is” – For Cancer Research…

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Well…

Not quite sure what to say, but the paperback version of this book of poems is ready to buy earlier than planned! If you click the picture it should take you through to the lulu webpage.

It’s taken a while from concept to delivery, some road humps along the way, but it is not too bad for a first attempt.

All profit from this project will be collated over the next 12 months and donated to Cancer Research.

For your information, the cost to make each book is £4.10, so each purchase will mean a donation of £5.89. I will keep a running total on a fixed page somewhere so you can keep track if you are interested.

A hardback version will follow, but the cost price on that is huge, so I am not sure if there will be much in the way of selling / donations. Time will tell.

When I started this blog, I did it in secret and for the most part, I still do. I wrote and continue to write for therapy under servere pressure, trying to hold my head and my sanity together whilst the world around me fell apart. Watching my Father slip away crowned an amazing 15 month period in my life that couldn’t have been written by the best script writers.

But I am still here, still trying to get through life like we all do – It’s fair to say I have been on the ropes, but not knocked out…

I appreciate that many of you have read my words and have been subjected to my torrid last few months – for that I apologise and thank you in equal measure. Most of you are faceless to me, but you all have a talent in writing and reading others work inspires me to do better and look at my own work through a different lens.

I have had help and encouragement from offline too and they know who they are – so thank you!!

I hope that you are able to donate to this cause, but if not, the poems remain on the site and who knows, a volume 2 may evolve– so thanks again for reading and enjoy.

Cheers

J

“Put your ray gun to my head”…

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Twisting…
Falling…
Can you hear the Devil calling…

Confusing…
Confessing…
Is your faith, never ending…

Abandoning…
Denouncing…
Consequences are so frightening…

Fighting…
Cheating…
Stabbed heart is forever bleeding…

Something…
Nothing…
Bitter soul has lost all feeling…

Floating…
Drowning…
This cruel world is overwhelming…

Crying…
Flying…
Inside we’re all simply dying…

Losing…
Refusing…
Come on now, who the fuck you fooling…

Listening…
Talking…
Ghost of a man forever walking…

Waiting…
Watching…
Those electric eyes are always stalking…

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