“But half of me, deserves everything he gets”…

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He’s found a way to live…
Devoid of all emotion…

A simple trick of the mind…
Sets the wheels in motion…

Locking it all away…
Preventing any tears…

That would flood his eyes…
If he remembered all the years…

The good times and the bad…
All his stupid mistakes…

On the road that he has travelled…
The decisions that he’s made…

In the search of some distraction…
Whilst hiding in plain sight…

But distorting his reality…
Under cover of the night…

Where he becomes another…
Assumes that personality…

The one that he keeps hidden…
So no one else can see…

Like Dr Jekyll and Mr Hyde…
At the flick of a switch…

Sees a quick transformation…
Like a spell cast by a witch…

Turning to the dark side…
Tuning into evil thoughts…

Listening to the demons…
Forgetting all he’s been taught…

And living in the shadows…
Searching for like minds…

Those who understand him…
Not judging what they find…

But then he forgets it all…
In the light of the morning sun…

Pretends it never happened…
And moves on, starts to run…

Like a scared little child…
A boy just like Peter Pan…

Who never really grew up…
Or understood life’s plan…

Trapped in a prison…
His own private cell…

He can never escape it…
Some days it feels like Hell…

So he’s now found a way…
To live without emotion…

It’s how he exists…
It’s the path he has chosen…

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“You go back to her and I go back to black”…

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Please don’t lock me out…
Please don’t push me away…

Hear me when I shout…
Believe I’m here to stay…

Try to get my message…
And read all my signs…

Realise what you are doing…
Revaluate your life’s design…

This is for the best…
Awake from your dreamland…

Don’t waste time hating him…
Just try and understand…

That you’re in a black place…
And I simply want to assist…

If you open up the doors…
I’ll try help you lift the mist…

We’ll take it at your pace…
Slowly, step by step…

We can talk it through…
Unpick this spider’s web…

I know it’s not an easy task…
I have no magic wand…

I’ll sit and talk for hours…
I’m really yours to command…

But you really have to trust me…
I know that it seems hard…

You’re the key to all of this…
You alone hold all the cards…

I know what you’ve been through…
And none of it’s your fault…

The world has been against you…
In a full all-out assault…

You’re trapped in a prison…
Your own little private cell…

Let’s work out how to escape…
Be free from this living Hell…

I’m not saying it will be easy…
Nothing worthwhile ever is…

But I’ll help you overcome this…
And defeat this dark nemesis…

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“Just remember to always think twice”…

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Looking over his shoulder…
To see if she’s there…

The one he was kind to…
Whilst being unaware…

Of the feelings created…
Deep within her mind…

The beast he had stirred…
That was hidden behind…

Words of friendship…
And seemingly harmless fun…

But as things progressed…
He realised what he’d done…

By then it was too late…
There was no way to stop…

The fates conspiring…
As he forced her tears to drop…

With a humble explanation…
That outlined the mistake…

But his words were futile…
And contact he had to break…

To escape her madness…
Go back to real life…

To his family and friends…
And his oblivious wife…

But as days became weeks…
She refused to let go…

He belonged to her…
She’d let the world know…

Promises, lies and threats…
She stalked his every move…

Around every street corner…
Her love she tried to prove…

She begged and she pleaded…
Before she finally snapped…

Followed him home one night…
And violently attacked…

Thrusting the knife deep…
Into his vulnerable heart…

Forcing him to his knees…
And his soul to depart…

Releasing her puppet…
But she just didn’t care…

Calmly walking off…
Into the cold night air…

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“Watch you smile while you are sleeping”…

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He kept his eyes wide open…
Every time that they kissed…

To make sure it was real…
And no detail was missed…

Or a single moment…
Of this unbelievable dream…

To remind him that it happened…
And she really was his queen…

Whose shimmering beauty…
Outshone all those around…

He couldn’t believe his luck…
At what he had found…

But this story had two sides…
And there was no escape…

Even if she’d wanted to…
There’s no route she could take…

As she was caught in his web…
And totally under his control…

Between a rock and a stone…
She couldn’t tell a soul…

Who would have believed her…
Her story was just fiction…

A total fantasy mixed with lies…
And an added erotic addiction…

But he knew where it was going…
And was clear what he wants…

Even if, in the midst of it all…
His guilty mind screams and haunts…

And reminded him constantly…
That this was just not right…

She didn’t belong to him…
But his conscience lost the fight…

As she now lies in front of him…
Staring blankly into space…

All hair and perfect make up…
No imperfections on her face…

In her dress, without her heels…
He laid her out on the bed…

Her heart no longer beating…
She now belongs to the dead…

And he’s stood there watching…
Like some twisted voyeur…

Feasting on his evil deed…
And silently hovering over her…

His victim number twelve…
His latest treasure, his prize…

Who now stares back at him…
With dull and lifeless eyes…

He kept her eyes open…
As he strangled her throat…

To make sure she watched…
So he could quietly gloat…

Loving every single moment…
Like he was in some sordid dream…

As he soaked in her final breath…
And her final muffled scream…

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“Somebody said dignity was the last to leave”…

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His eyes are stale and lifeless…
Sitting alone in his chair…

Struggling to recall the time…
He could do more than just stare…

His mind is so much older…
Time has ravaged his thoughts…

Destroying all his memories…
Forgetting all he was taught…

It’s a struggle for him to speak…
To even find any words…

His sentences get cut adrift…
Distracted by the passing birds…

Hands that were once weapons…
Now hang sadly at his side…

He cannot even stand alone…
They’ve stripped him of all pride…

It used to be so different…
For this bright and intelligent man…

He had everything he wanted…
The master of his own life plan…

Yet it was all taken so quickly…
They took his wife, then child…

Left him broken and shattered…
Even then he remained so mild…

Dignified and so defiant…
In the face of all that pain…

But when they came back for him…
The Gods attacked his brain…

It was the only way to beat him…
To take his remaining sanity…

Now he sits silently before them…
Yet refuses to go on bended knee…

He remains a total gentleman…
A credit to the Human race…

They have done their worst to him…
Yet kindness still radiates from his face…

And his story is nearly over…
But one day it should be told…

Bad things happen to good people…
And nothing can ever be foretold…

Nothing should be taken for granted…
Because in just a single stroke…

Everything can be changed…
And sadness replaces the joke…

His eyes are stale and lifeless…
Sitting alone in his chair…

His family do not have the time…
Does anyone really care…

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“I know a girl with the Golden touch”…

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She lives a lie…
A complex fantasy…

Disguised in words…
So no one can see…

That she’s all alone…
Walking in single file…

But won’t admit it…
As she lives in denial…

Like it’s a weakness…
Her Achilles heel…

A chink in her armour…
If she ever revealed…

How empty she was…
Deep down inside…

That he doesn’t exist…
She’d lose all her pride…

So she lives a life…
Inside her head…

Where he resides…
Outside the empty bed…

Inventing stories…
Of her happy life…

But each White lie…
Twists the internal knife…

As she knows that…
The day will come…

Her mask will slip…
And she’ll come undone…

Revealing the void…
Of heart-breaking pain…

The bitter loneliness…
And never ending rain…

As she’s falling apart…
With no one around…

No one to adore…
No soul mate found…

So she lives this lie…
A made up fantasy…

Hidden behind her words…
For no one to see…

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“Send an arrow up high, like an invitation”…

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On an island far away…

She sends a message out…

Sent through time and space…

Removing any doubt…

It’s simple, pure and clear…

To be received by only one…

From this goddess of the sea…

Who’s basking in the sun…

Like an arrow from the archer…

Fired into the deep blue sky…

She’s sending out her signal…

Hoping that he will reply…

Praying that he’ll notice…

And be reminded of the past…

Forget the pain she caused him…

Release the anger he’s amassed…

She knows that he’s her soul mate…

And regrets what has been said…

The bitter words and actions…

That caused his hate to spread…

Like a cancer in his mind…

Erasing all that was good…

Isolating his wounded heart…

Because he never understood…

What he did to hurt her…

And force her to escape…

So he tried to forget her face…

And give his life new shape…

But he never shook off the feelings…

Those love and hate extremes…

Now she stands there calling…

The woman of his dreams…

It’s so hard not to notice…

He finds her impossible to ignore…

She is such a stunning creature…

Perhaps it’s time to end the war…

And travel to that island…

Fall straight back into her arms…

Devote his future to her…

And those seductive stunning charms…

But the voices send a warning…

Plant doubts inside his mind…

Could his heart withstand it…

If she was cold and so unkind…

But the message reassures him…

He’s ready to risk it all…

Fall under her magic spell…

And answer her enchanting call…

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