“Lately, words are missing from now on”…

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Immersed in the silence…

Standing high above…

Away from all the chaos…

With the view of a dove…

Looking down upon them…

Invisible to them all…

The only time they’ll notice…

Is when the ground halts her fall…

She doesn’t know how she got here…

Her day has been a blur…

But the voices keep on talking…

And she’s no strength left to defer…

As this moment has been coming…

She’s grown darker by the day…

Her demons kept tormenting…

Her depression wouldn’t go away…

She’s been looking for an answer…

She’s been praying for a sign…

An end to her inner turmoil…

By some heavenly design…

But the gods have not listened…

Despite all the preachers lies…

Leaving her no other option…

But to sever all her ties…

And as she stands there gazing….

At what lies far below…

She thinks of her family…

Who just didn’t want to know…

The friends who didn’t notice…

And never heard her pleas…

Whist the voices in her head…

Finally forced her to her knees…

To this point of no return…

A place of darkness and despair…

Where her life has no meaning…

Amongst a pile of unanswered prayers…

Leaving only pain and anger…

Pushing her closer to the edge…

And in a desperate bid for freedom…

She steps off the ledge…

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“And my world will stop spinning”…

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Walking from the wreckage…

Of the failed fantasy…

Doomed from the start…

But her eyes refused see…

Or take time to notice…

The flaws in her plan…

As she melted in the eyes…

Of that dreamlike man…

But crossing that white line…

Between two different worlds…

The dream and reality…

Seldom ever works…

As when worlds collide…

Stars begin to fall…

What she thought she wanted…

Just wasn’t right at all…

And living two lives…

Drained so much emotion…

Made her feel like swimming…

In the midst of the ocean…

Subject to nature’s forces…

The push and the pull…

As the swell dragged her under…

It became so damn painful…

No mermaids there to help her…

As guilt filled her lungs…

And choking on her conscience…

Led to speaking with forked tongues…

Lying to those around her…

As the thrill quickly subsided…

Leaving only emptiness…

Whilst her morals were blindsided…

And as she walked away…

Trying to regain some pride…

Sadness filled her heart…

Because part of her had died…

The part that yearned excitement…

The thrill of pure distraction…

That gave her wings to fly…

Yet led to her hearts destruction…

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“Hear my words that I might teach you”…

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There’s no way you can kill me…
Because I’m already dead…

A ghostly flicker of a shadow…
Who resides within your head…

Only you can see me…
No one else can ever hear…

I’m your soul’s companion…
The one that you should fear…

I know what you are thinking…
I see what your evil eye sees…

I plant the thoughts into your mind…
All your actions are down to me…

I made you do the bad things…
I let you do all that was good…

And when it came to the evil…
I was the spark on the firewood…

I’m the unseen puppet master…
Controlling all that I choose…

If you ever tried to break free…
You know what you would lose…

All you have to do is obey…
Follow each and every command…

I’ll guide you at the crossroads…
Navigate you through the sinking sands…

But the moment that you cross me…
The minute you try to ignore…

I’ll drag you to a tormented Hell…
And you’ll regret forever more…

So don’t even think about it…
Just do exactly as you’re told…

Accept we’re in this together…
And count the lives we’ve stole…

As you can’t fucking kill me…
I reside within your head…

One day you will silence me…
But not before you’re dead…

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“I dug some graves, you’ll never find”…

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The years passed by…
But the memories are fresh…

Of seeing her body…
Wrapped in that dress…

A dancing vision…
With haunting eyes…

His view was drawn…
To her hold up thighs…

And in that moment…
His mind was blown…

The plan was set…
The seeds were sown…

She danced for pleasure…
And danced for fun…

But his cold black heart…
Knew she was the one…

She’d be his first…
But not the last…

As in that moment…
The die was cast…

An overwhelming desire…
To assume full control…

He knew he would steal…
Her pure white soul…

He followed her home…
And forced her inside…

Held her hostage…
As she cried, all tied…

He kissed her cheek…
And made her beg…

He had his way…
On her freshly made bed…

When he took her life…
Stole her final breath…

It was so very powerful…
He will never forget…

A feeling he chases…
Each and every day…

Now serial killer…
Seeking out his next prey…

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“Infect me with your love and fill me with your poison”…

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You don’t know what you do to me…
You don’t know how this feels…

All these crazy feelings…
Please tell me this is real…

You leave my poor heart pounding…
My head just fucking spins…

I know that I’m not dreaming…
But not sure where we begin…

This attraction is so powerful…
Am so scared of where it’ll lead…

There will be recriminations…
If these actions do succeed…

Do you realise what you started…
Have you any idea what you’ve done…

This sinful world is not my place…
I miss the warmth of the Sun…

There is danger all around us…
In everything we say or do…

Are you really risking everything…
Or are you taking me for a fool…

Your eyes don’t betray your feelings…
Your mouth won’t give you away…

I misinterpret what you say to me…
Is this just a game you play…

I need to know the answer…
There is so much at stake…

Yet I’m gambling everything…
Knowing it will end in sheer heartbreak…

Maybe I need to see a doctor…
Or at least get some therapy…

I need a way to forget your face…
And end this insane fantasy…

But how do I escape you…
Or wipe you from my memory…

I’m trying hard to forget the truth…
And focus on day to day reality…

You don’t know what you do to me…
Please tell me you feel the same…

All these fucked up feelings…
My soul burns with your name…

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“Teardrop on the fire, of a confession”…

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His words were always…

Lost in translation…

She would smile sweetly…

But it was no consolation…

She understood little…

Much to his frustration…

But when their eyes met…

He felt the transformation…

As a lightning bolt hit…

That defied all explanation…

Like star crossed lovers…

From different constellations…

A fantasy come true…

The feeling of pure exhilaration…

From the very first moment…

And very first flirtation…

Where innocence was lost…

When under interrogation…

Driven by Lust’s power…

And the thrill of temptation…

Which blinded their morals…

And erased their education…

Pure souls slowly becoming…

Solied with sinful contamination…

Walking down the path…

Towards eternal damnation…

As corrupted minds…

Shared unspoken conversation…

When stood trembling beside her…

She felt his vibration…

When touching each other…

He was lost to infatuation…

But when it was all over…

Came a wave of aggravation…

As the spite and anger grew…

So did each painful accusation…

But time wandered on…

And in space for contemplation…

Blinded eyes were prised open…

Like a religious revelation…

His words are now always…

Filled with guarded hesitation…

As she looks right through him…

Freed from any expectation…

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Photography by Benoit Courti

“Sinner, I have never learned”…

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The angels won’t save you…
They’ve covered their eyes…

And blocked their ears…
So they can’t hear your lies…

They know what you’re doing…
They watch from a far…

They are keeping a record…
Each and every little scar…

Every time you deceive…
Each mark your soul…

They know all the details…
And the size of the hole…

The one that’s being dug…
Especially for you…

Your final resting place…
When this life is through…

As you won’t fly with angels…
Or sit on the right hand…

There’ll be no Vestal Virgins…
There’ll be no promised land…

Your fate has been written…
By you and you alone…

The depths of Hell awaits…
Chained to Satan’s throne…

Forever to be reminded…
Of what you have done…

Your crimes all replayed…
All your dark sins rerun…

In a perpetual playback…
For your eyes only…

Showing you the impact…
On the weak and the lonely…

Those you have hurt…
And stabbed in the back…

Those lives you ruined…
And pushed into the black…

Because no one can save you…
You’re the one they despise…

The one who is marked…
A sinner with snake eyes…

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“You go back to her and I go back to black”…

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Please don’t lock me out…
Please don’t push me away…

Hear me when I shout…
Believe I’m here to stay…

Try to get my message…
And read all my signs…

Realise what you are doing…
Revaluate your life’s design…

This is for the best…
Awake from your dreamland…

Don’t waste time hating him…
Just try and understand…

That you’re in a black place…
And I simply want to assist…

If you open up the doors…
I’ll try help you lift the mist…

We’ll take it at your pace…
Slowly, step by step…

We can talk it through…
Unpick this spider’s web…

I know it’s not an easy task…
I have no magic wand…

I’ll sit and talk for hours…
I’m really yours to command…

But you really have to trust me…
I know that it seems hard…

You’re the key to all of this…
You alone hold all the cards…

I know what you’ve been through…
And none of it’s your fault…

The world has been against you…
In a full all-out assault…

You’re trapped in a prison…
Your own little private cell…

Let’s work out how to escape…
Be free from this living Hell…

I’m not saying it will be easy…
Nothing worthwhile ever is…

But I’ll help you overcome this…
And defeat this dark nemesis…

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“It always ends the same”…

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Life’s just too short…

To play this game…

Each time I do…

I’m burnt by the flame…

So take your foot…

From off my head…

Allow me to breathe…

And live my life instead…

Of waiting for you…

To give me a sign…

Or show to me…

That you could be mine…

I just can’t keep waiting…

For you to play fair…

Or give me a hint…

That you actually care…

It’s such hard work…

Consumes all my time…

Thinking about you…

Is that such a crime…

Even if that is bad…

I’ll tell you what’s worse…

You infecting me with…

This impossible curse…

A never ending vision…

Cemented into my mind…

Just one perfect moment…

Frozen in space and time…

You knew I’d want more…

Of that there’s no doubt…

So come and find me…

Quietly, no need to shout…

Just come and hold me…

And give me your tongue…

Because this battle has ended…

The war has long been won…

You don’t need to say it…

A simple kiss will do…

So stop playing games…

And let me inside you…

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“They say I’m mental, but I’ve been abused”…

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He walked up the steps…
And stumbled inside…

Into the room at the top…
Where the memory resides…

Of his pure innocence…
Cruelly ripped away…

On a dark summer night…
After a long hot day…

It’d started so brightly…
Filled with endless love…

No hint of the evil…
Descending from above…

In that room as he slept…
And was quietly woken…

Subjected to such horrors…
That left him just broken…

Unable to speak…
And unable to smile…

It scarred him forever…
His soul in exile…

Never spoken about since…
Kept in secret & silence…

In fear that speaking out…
May lead to violence…

So it was locked away…
In a box labelled shame…

Forgetting the horror…
Never speaking its name…

Moving on with his life…
Smoothing out its creases…

Trying to live with it…
And pick up the pieces…

But now he is back…
After all those years…

Stood in that room…
Holding back the tears…

With a knife in his hand…
It’s time to submit…

Switch off his pain…
And finally end it…

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