This week, these pages are turned over to selected Guest Poets – I hope you enjoy!
My second Guest Poet has submitted for the first time– so please welcome Sixymama!
You can read more of Sixymama’s work here: https://sixymamaforthefuture.wordpress.com/
If you would like to send a submission in for a future Guest Poet spot, please email eyewillnotcry@hotmail.co.uk
Cheers
J
It’s moments like this when I want to hurt myself
and cut my skin until it bleeds
I want to feel the pain that comes with opening it up
seeing my blood, my tissues exposed to bleed
It swells through the cut, floods over and drips down
moves forward like a slow tide on a warm day inexorable inevitable
My blood my life my red – I want to feel something else
I want to not be so pent up hung up so angry frustrated
FEELING I WANT TO CUT OFF and why can’t I be quiet
and not feel it all when I want to
Why does it strike at the wrong times like now like then like always
My chest hurts it squeezes it pains me
I wish it were a heart attack but I know the truth
It is not a problem with my heart
It is a problem with my soul my me my mine
It makes my chest hurt, but not the hurt I actually want to feel
But a hurt that didn’t scare me enough to shut it off
I want a heart attack, I want to die, I want to cease
I hate to be angry and yet it is me
I hate myself, I hate myself, I hate myself, my selfless self
Myself of selfishness and selflessness myself that is here shut in the dark locked away
breathing but dying more each day
I wish I could cut myself
But I can’t because if I do
I don’t think I could stop
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HI,
can I have a guest post of my english poetries on your blog?
u may reblog any of my english poem or u may send me e-mail i.d on which I may send the poetry for guest post
thanks
AATIF