Long time friend and supporter of this blog Nathan returns with a heartbreaking poem as tonight’s Guest Poet
You can read more of Nathan’s work here https://randompoemswithnohome.wordpress.com
If you would like to partake in Guest Poet Week during January 2017, please submit your words to eyewillnotcry@hotmail.co.uk before 6th Jan 2017
I’m standing at your door
soaked with panic and fear.
I love you so much!
Please be okay!
is all that runs through my
saddening, stifled mind as
I slip my frenzied note
beneath the breath of your door.
I wanted to marry you that week,
infusing a life we wanted
a little bit sooner because
I needed to save you.
I failed.
I failed because our wedding date
is just around the corner…
December 14, 2016, and you died.
I was too desperately late
to hack your email account,
posting a message as you
on your Facebook wall
delivering justifiable cause
for the police to enter your room.
I was too late as I listen
to your last, urgent voicemail
that prays for me to come over now
because you’re taking all your meds
…and all the heroin
you had.
I had no idea the holidays
would sigh with so much pain.
Days pile on with anxious guilt,
with blame becoming like blades
slicing the eloquent edge
of a sorrowed song
into me.
I know your smell because
your perfume and portraits
are sprinkled throughout this home.
This home that should be
ours.
My gosh. My heart. Your heart. I’m sorry. This is beautiful and utterly, overwhelmingly, beautifully heartbreaking.
What a heart touching poem! Don’t know what else to say other than thank you for writing it and sharing it.
This is heartbreaking. 😦
Poignant …..but truly beautiful. Hugs
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