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In a room with no light…
In a tomb without a door…
The blackness of my mind…
Cannot take much more…
Of this life lived in purgatory…
This life lived in shame…
Where passers-by know me…
But never ask my name…
Where the sun always shines…
Giving someone else its heat…
Where lovers want to love me…
Yet still I lie and I cheat …
Hidden behind a mask…
Living inside a mental cage…
And when I look in the mirror…
That fool shows his rage…
Staring right through me…
With eyes full of hate…
Sending me a message…
Of the hell that awaits…
Knowing all my secrets…
Watching my every move…
And whispering in my ear…
Whenever I try to prove…
That I can break free of this…
Or walk into the light…
Turning every single step…
Into some ungodly fight…
Making me feel an imposter…
Someone weak and fearful…
Who doesn’t deserve happiness…
And should remain resentful…
Of others all around me…
Who can walk so tall and proud…
Who never battle demons…
Or live beneath a shroud…
And now it slowly comes again…
The darkness and the pain…
Trapping me in my minds eye…
Always driving me insane…
©Eyewillnotcry1973
Inspired by the song “You Want It Darker” by Leonard Cohen RIP
Such is the truth of depression!
Indeed Rick, thanks for stopping by! Cheers J
“Of others all around me…
Who can walk so tall and proud…
Who never battle demons…
Or live beneath a shroud…”
Only the brain dead would qualify.
Too true! Cheers J
Thanks for the song – darkness….. and quieter.
You’re welcome – Cheers J