Vanished…

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When I close my eyes…
And I give into sleep…

The dreams have gone…
It’s black and it’s bleak…

The visions that haunted…
Are no longer there…

The curve of her body…
Her temptress stare…

The way that she moved…
Waltzing round my head…

Have been extracted…
It’s like I am dead…

With my body floating…
On a huge silent ocean…

Alone in the darkness…
Devoid of all emotion…

Pondering the wherefore…
Questioning the why…

Calling out her name…
Into a black starless sky…

Unable to recall her…
The features of her face…

What was once so vivid…
Vanished without a trace…

The feelings she ignited…
The electricity she sparked…

Are dim distant memories…
Held in a grave unmarked…

Leaving a hole in the void…
A lingering sense of loss…

And a stark realisation…
That behind her lip-gloss…

Was a chance to feel alive…
And dance with the Devil…

Live life on the wild side…
Descend to a different level…

But she came and she went…
Like a freak lightning bolt…

Engulfing me in blackness…
Lacing my wounds with salt…

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©Eyewillnotcry1973

Inspired by the song “On The Level” by Leonard Cohen

Damaged…

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I wonder what she thinks about…
When gazing up at the night sky…

A million burning shooting stars…
Wrapped up inside her bitter lies…

I wonder about her thought process…
How she appears constantly scheming…

Managing to construct her world…
Without conscience and without feeling…

Weaving her way through this life…
Where her acid words cause corrosion…

Forever dropping hand grenades…
Then getting high on the explosion…

Before moving onto her next victim…
With a simple grace and ease…

Knowing what fate awaits them…
Knowing she’ll never have to please…

Anyone but her own selfish self…
And doing whatever her ego needs…

To fuel and feel better about herself…
Whilst ignoring others saddened pleas…

I wonder if she sees the damage…
Realises the impact of her actions…

Or if she’s innocent and ignorant…
To other people’s horrified reactions…

Where she walks round so oblivious…
And if she was ever shown the light…

She would feel so physically sick…
She would fight to make things right…

Yet seemingly choosing the other path…
For nothing more than simple kicks…

Ripping apart those broken souls…
Who will never heal and never fix…

Perhaps it stems from childhood…
Forcing her to carry so much baggage…

As I’ve never seen such a vicious bitch…
I’ve never seen eyes look so damaged…

And as I stand and gaze upon her…
I know the truth of what lies within…

Yet there is just something that captivates…
Drawing me deeper into her web of sin…

~

©Eyewillnotcry1973

Inspired by the song “To Be Alone” by Hozier

The Darkness…

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In a room with no light…
In a tomb without a door…

The blackness of my mind…
Cannot take much more…

Of this life lived in purgatory…
This life lived in shame…

Where passers-by know me…
But never ask my name…

Where the sun always shines…
Giving someone else its heat…

Where lovers want to love me…
Yet still I lie and I cheat …

Hidden behind a mask…
Living inside a mental cage…

And when I look in the mirror…
That fool shows his rage…

Staring right through me…
With eyes full of hate…

Sending me a message…
Of the hell that awaits…

Knowing all my secrets…
Watching my every move…

And whispering in my ear…
Whenever I try to prove…

That I can break free of this…
Or walk into the light…

Turning every single step…
Into some ungodly fight…

Making me feel an imposter…
Someone weak and fearful…

Who doesn’t deserve happiness…
And should remain resentful…

Of others all around me…
Who can walk so tall and proud…

Who never battle demons…
Or live beneath a shroud…

And now it slowly comes again…
The darkness and the pain…

Trapping me in my minds eye…
Always driving me insane…

©Eyewillnotcry1973

Inspired by the song “You Want It Darker” by Leonard Cohen RIP

 

Broken Down…

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Why did you do it…
Why did you come back…

Subjecting my world…
To a sustained attack…

Casting your spells…
And poisoning my mind…

Is this just a game to you…
Why act so unkind…

You know that I’m weak…
You know my Achilles heel…

Yet you exploit my feelings…
Put me though this ordeal…

Does it make you smile…
To inflict all this pain…

Has it become your mission…
To drive me insane…

And make me pay…
For all my mistakes…

Is this what you want…
Is this what it takes…

Getting your thrills…
By watching me suffer…

Was I really that bad…
Hurt you like no other…

Leaving those scars…
So deep and so wide…

Hurting so badly…
Omnipresent, deep inside…

That have left you damaged…
With a thirst for revenge…

And you know how to get it…
You know I’ll descend…

Because I’m an addict…
And you are my drug…

Which makes it so easy…
For you to smile so smug…

And taste your victory…
Over and over again…

Getting off on my torment…
Getting high on my pain…

~

©Eyewillnotcry1973

Inspired by the song “Come Undone” by Raymond Meade FT Justin Currie