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Not sure when it happened…
Not sure where it began…
It’s blurred around the edges…
Out of focus and off plan…
Yet it became embedded…
Took root within my soul…
In a moment of weakness…
Spinning out of all control…
My knees weak under strain…
My head not thinking straight…
At the bottom of a bottle…
When it was much too late…
To look at you objectively…
To realise the impact…
To withhold my affections…
And deny the clear facts…
That in the quest for distraction…
You became something more…
An unstoppable force…
As clothes fell to the floor…
And morels got lost…
Whilst limbs intertwined…
Stealing stolen kisses…
As vodka mixed with wine…
And your face was imprinted…
Into my vulnerable mind…
So each time that I dreamt…
You’re the only one I’d find…
Whispering so gently…
Speaking forbidden words…
And haunting me daily…
Within songs of the birds…
So I ignore all the nightmares…
Where ravens would attack…
I embrace your verbal arrows…
That would stab into my back…
Because I burn with this passion…
And the thrill of this torment…
As this is never ending…
There’s no halting my decent…
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©Eyewillnotcry1973
Inspired by the song “#1 Crush” by Garbage
J, I love your inspiration for, “Inner Torment…” I always thought the edges were blurred on purpose, not to be mistaken with a crisp chalk outline, that way we always have an excuse for our behavior. “I will crawl on hands and knees until you see, you’re just like me”, we all do this at least once, right? I think you did a wonderful job with your poem, expanding on the idea of the perfect obsession, whoops I mean crush. Hope you’re having a great week. ~ Mia
Thank you so much for your kind words Mia – very much appreciated – Cheers J
Love this….
I love that you love this! Cheers J
Nice work Sweetheart ~ well constructed and filled with hard erotic emotion. ❤ ❤ ❤
Very kind Jack – Cheers J
It’s amazing. I could feel the emotions coursing through while I read your poem. The question is…Is it possible to get out of this?
Thanks Kritkam, glad you connected – as to your question, you could fool yourself into thinking yes, but I think once the roots take place, the honest answer is you will always carry it with you. Cheers J
That is true. You will always carry it within your self. It will be there deep down even while you move on. But move on you will. The thing that tormented you for days might later come to your mind only for seconds. I am glad that I connected too 🙂
Amazing use of words and thoughts. I had to read again.