Unspoken…

 

august

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There are things I never told you…
There are things I’d never say…

I kept them locked within me…
It has always been that way…

From the moment that I met you…
To the day that you walked out…

I built a wall around myself…
Constructed from self-doubt…

And that nagging little feeling…
That I was never good enough…

To match up to your expectations…
The standards set, so tough…

Which left me always wondering…
Why you accepted being with me…

And whenever I was close to you…
I always really struggled to see…

At the side of your true beauty…
What it was that caught your eye…

And forced you to stick by me…
As all those years went by…

From moments of high drama…
To flashes of pure ecstasy…

But even on the brighter days…
My inner demon would tease…

And that little voice inside me…
Would always strip away…

Any thoughts of true happiness…
Ruin any sunny and tranquil day…

And remind that your presence…
Was always more than I deserved…

Each moment that I treasured…
Weren’t really mine to be preserved…

And like a self-fulfilling prophecy…
Those cutting words became true…

Watching you walk out the door…
My soul simply withdrew…

Leaving me in a dark place…
Where I no longer really exist…

And words I now say to you…
Are so very easily dismissed…

~

©Eyewillnotcry1973

Inspired by the song “Say Something” by A Great Big World

17 responses to “Unspoken…

  1. I have this feeling a lot.
    My wife of 30 years, a flawed vessel, as are we all,is awe inspiring and I often wonder, “Why me? Why did this goddess accept me?”
    Self doubt is ubiquitous but I suppose it’s preferable to ego mania.

  2. It’s a little like feeling guilty that one so special in your eyes should even bother with you.
    Self confidence is the key as no one will love you if you don’t love yourself. Yes appreciation goes a long way but love “you” too!

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