“When you kill the lights, and kiss my eyes”…

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Haunted by the memories…
And the constant flashbacks…

As those nights we shared…
Are now demonic attacks…

That stem from the guilt…
Of being laid next to you…

Pushing sexual boundaries…
Under the spell of voodoo…

The two of us together…
Committing those crimes…

It’s a permanent image…
Burned into my mind…

And those visions return…
Each and every night…

A dark fantasy world…
So wrong, it was right…

Black lace and stockings…
The blindfold and cuffs…

The push and the pull…
Your demands for it rough…

But morning would come…
And the reality hit hard…

Real life was waiting…
This was all a façade…

A distraction that led…
To a destructive addiction…

A fucking fantasy lifestyle…
That defied any description…

Where you were the one…
Who changed everything…

Provided the excitement…
Granted me the wings…

But my payment for this…
Was a mental prison cell…

Whilst the moments were sweet…
Day to day living was hell…

And yet still you remain…
Somewhere deep down inside…

Where memories we created…
Hide behind tears I can’t cry…

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16 responses to ““When you kill the lights, and kiss my eyes”…

  1. WOW! Thanks for liking my post and leading me here because holy crap, that poem is like reading a small section of my life… already destroyed, he was laying in wait for one like me. I can only look back now and be thankful it ended!

  2. J, I will tell you, depending who visit here, your words evoke excitement, sadness, guilt, lust, anger, so many things. These are the reasons we visit and sometimes cannot. Always a deep pleasure and raw emotional experience to read your words. The sign of a truly deep soul and artist.
    Vanessa

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