“Tonight I’m gonna hurt, everyone I love”…

wall

~

He was far too selfish…
And was far too old…

To care about others…
If the truth were told…

After all this time…
After all these years…

Trying to please them…
And ease their fears…

But it was all one way…
It felt so fucking draining…

Despite best intentions…
He kept miss aiming…

His words would backfire…
Each and every day…

It left him feeling…
In a frustrated daze…

Until one dark night…
He sought distraction…

A sympathetic ear…
Or forbidden interaction…

And fuelled by alcohol…
Mixed with self-pity…

Seduced by the lights…
Of the perfect city…

Just a single look…
From a total stranger…

Laced with dark sin…
And fraught with danger…

Left him breathless…
Spinning out of control…

And in a hotel room…
The Devil took his soul…

As vodka lips collided…
He got lost at sea…

And his Lust filled eyes…
Simply could not see…

The damage he’d done…
The price he would pay…

The guilty secret he’d carry…
Until his dying day…

~

 

“Be the one girl, that I’ll never forget”…

sheee

~

He was sat all alone…
Reaching out to the past…

Holding half a conversation…
The kind that never lasts…

And quickly finding himself…
Taken back to a time…

When she was sat with him…
And he felt so fucking fine…

The beast and the beauty…
Lost in a parallel world…

One that never existed…
But it began to unfold…

As they spoke in tongues…
Both forked and foreign…

Not really understanding…
The power they were pouring…

As the spell they were casting…
Created such a black hole…

That grew bigger and bigger…
The more that they stole…

Moments of pure sweetness…
And such forbidden passion…

As they kissed each other…
Like it was going out of fashion…

And they got lost in a moment…
That’s now frozen in time…

The perfect reminder…
Of such a perfect crime…

Yet the feelings he carries…
Are still so red raw…

Was it really just Lust…
Perhaps it was more…

As they explored each other…
In a cheap hotel room…

Away from the rain…
Away from life’s gloom…

Now it’s just a memory…
Buried far and deep down…

Only brought to the surface…
When he returns to this town…

~

“A kiss holds a million deceits”…

girls

~

No one quite gets her…
No one really understands…

Just a little lost lady…
Reaching out her hands…

Looking for something…
And someone to hold…

No payback for her bravery…
No reward for being bold…

She wants to be loved…
But they only see her past…

The scars and the damage…
Too much history amassed…

As time and time again…
They’ve treated her like dirt…

She’s chosen the men…
They’ve repaid her with hurt…

Not seeing the love…
She could offer to them…

And one by one…
They’ve slowly condemned…

This beautiful creature…
To a life in the shadows…

Fighting a darkness…
That only she knows…

And now she sits quietly…
Waiting for the phone…

Fighting ghosts of her past…
And fighting them alone…

Desperate for someone…
To give her a sign…

To gently whisper to her…
That it’ll all work out fine…

And her prince will come…
Upon his white steed…

Sweep her off her feet…
At heart racing speed…

But until that moment…
She stares out of the window…

Trying to numb the pain…
Whilst her life’s stuck in limbo…

~

“Don’t feed it, it will come back”…

Please welcome Autumn Sky as my latest guest poet!

You can read more of Autumn’s work here: hearknowevil.wordpress.com

If you want to be a guest poet, email your words to eyewillnotcry@hotmail.co.uk
Cheers

hoj
It

It entered the world innocent, weak, and starkly white,
With not the slightest intention of becoming a blight:
It nursed, and It cried; crawled, walked, got on skis,
The pale monster which would one day bring me to my knees.
Much, much later on, I made an awful mistake,
One little trip, on a whim, I decided to take,
Placed me within reach of this wretched manifestation,
Of my heart’s desire and my soul’s fascination –
The timing was tempting for this trick of Love’s magic,
Heedless of the warning signs, defying the tragic,
I allowed It to conquer, to swallow me whole,
My entrails,, every cell was devoured by the troll.
Something new and exciting It had not encountered before,
Another life experience to add to Its store,
It feasted, It gorged, It came back for more,
It threw me the keys and unlocked the door.
It piled on promises, It held out till the end,
It plied me with hope and the words of a friend,
Made me drunk on Its voice, Its body and mind,
So tightly coiled, but It helped me unwind:
It kissed me deeply; It held me tightly;
It unclogged my fears and hope sparkled brightly;
The miseries of distance, love’s deepest conviction,
The story felt true, but the cover said “Fiction,”
An opaque wrap artfully hid it from view,
Till the very last It declared the story was true,
And then turned a page I did not know existed,
At the bottom two words mercilessly listed,
My soul they did puncture, my heart they did rend:
Its guiltless, cruel fingers had scrawled in: “THE END.”

 

“But if you’re looking for fastlove”…

end

~

There’s a place on the island…
Where he sometimes goes…

And he drinks to forget…
Everything that he knows…

A place called “The End”…
Where the vodka runs free…

And once he submerges…
He’s freed from reality…

Allowing him to indulge…
In every aspect of Lust…

And inviting his morals…
To crumble like dust…

Where he takes his pick…
Of the girls so very pretty…

From here and from there…
Escaping shadows of the city…

Who provide entertainment…
All different shades of sin…

The things that he dreams of…
And make his head spin…

Black stockings with heels…
White blouses, short skirts…

Chains upon leather…
With whips that will hurt…

A place where his fantasies…
Are there on demand…

Where beautiful women…
Act upon his command…

Whatever his fetish…
No matter the turn on…

Slaves to their master…
From night until dawn…

When real life awakens…
And he has to go home…

Back to his loving family…
And their monotonous tone…

But always dreaming about…
The next time he’ll escape…

And return to “The End”…
Where the forbidden awaits…

~

Maybe…

pain

~

This pain will one day pass…
And your eyes will begin to see…

The world spinning around you…
Is still full of wonder & fantasy…

And the hurt you are now feeling…
Will heal in the fullness of time…

Becoming your heart’s scar tissue…
A lump that will always remind…

Of the time when you flew so high…
Stretched your wings amongst the birds…

Danced between thunder & lightning…
Allowed electricity to ignite your world…

Taking you to some places…
You never thought you’d go…

Tasting such experiences…
You never thought you’d know…

And emotions never felt before…
Due to a version of yourself unseen…

Someone who sat deep within you…
Yet you never had the chance to be…

But now she walks alongside you…
The two of you have become one…

Now you face the challenge…
Of keeping her out of the sun…

Making sure she’s quietly hidden…
Forcing her out of plain sight…

Because if reality ever sees her…
Your mind will lose this fight…

And then life won’t be worth living…
Because it won’t be worth the cost…

As everything you know & love…
Will be shattered & will be lost…

So don’t let her colour your world…
Prevent her from taking control…

Be strong try to fight her…
Because the prize is your very soul…

As I promise this pain will pass…
And your eyes will slowly see…

That what maybe seemed so exciting…
Was always just a vivid fantasy…

~