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I don’t think about him…
Every single day…
Since Neptune came…
And took him away…
Filling his lungs…
In that watery grave…
It happened so fast…
With no chance to save…
A life extinguished…
In the blink of an eye…
A grieving family…
Left simply asking why…
Why was he chosen…
Out of everyone…
What was the reason…
Just what had he done…
For the beautiful mermaids…
To refuse him assistance…
And hiding their eyes…
As he fought for existence…
Only Eleven years old…
With an innocent smile…
No hint of corruption…
Just a happy child…
Who loved his life…
And all that it brought…
Yet the Gods wanted him…
No matter how we fought…
But in the midst of it all…
Trauma hit my head…
Not really understanding…
He really was dead…
But by learning to lock…
The painful memories away…
Dividing into little boxes…
To be faced, maybe one day…
Then perhaps that event…
Shaped who I really am…
A boy forever trapped…
Within the emotionless man…
Who doesn’t think about things…
In the way others do…
As it’s painful to remember…
The little boy who turned blue…
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Gorgeous poem
Thank you – Cheers J
THis must be painful. great write.
Thank you for your kind words George – Cheers J
(((Awhoooo)))
I have missed your howls Marcus! Will be over your way for a catch up soon! Cheers J
Never a worry. We all have real life to deal with. Visits are always a blessing. Hope you are well. Face licks pppp
Beautiful and emotive verse. Sad but full of feeling. I hope u got positive stance from writing this ::)
Thank you for your kind words Emma – Cheers J
This was beautiful J. The words are written with such loving memory, but the pain is so clear. I love the part about the mermaids….the song was ….loving thoughts with tears in my eyes…pure and emotional -CC
Thank you CC and thank you for inspiring me to be braver and not hide behind “He, She and they” and present a bit more of Me… Cheers J
Sometimes what we call hiding is surviving great pain until we are ready to face it. Know how, in what ways. Sometimes it is just hiding. I have learned that. The hard part is learning the difference and how to separate it, how to manage it….how to heal. Some wounds time never will. But it lessens. Healing loving thoughts to you, J. You have always been brave. Know that. Bravery is continuing on even in spite of fear and heartbreak. All my best -CC
Thank you CC – your words are much appreciated – Cheers J
Oh wow, this sounds so sad. And definitely a true story, not fiction. You’ve written your heart and thoughts here and it shows.
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Thank you for your kind words Stacilys – Cheers J
Achingly sad, yet hauntingly beautiful. A powerful poem.
Thank you Tricia – Cheers J
This is so beautifully written but so extremely sad! Got tears in my eyes…
Thanks, I won’t make a habit of making you cry – and you are up next! Cheers J
I’ll remember that, haha 😉 And thanks for having me as a guest poet again in such a short time ^^ Really appreciate it! And don’t forget you’re always welcome to return the favour 😉
Beautifully written. Loved it! 😀
Thank you Kanika – Cheers J
Reblogged this on Becoming is Superior to Being and commented:
Eye Will Not Cry’s posting yesterday is very apropos with the recent death of brother Tom. I talk to him (via phone in route to be with him) within the hour of his death
Thank you for your kind words and the Re:blog – much appreciated and sending you kind vibes – Cheers J
Beautiful, heartbreaking tribute.
Thank you for your kind words – Cheers J
This must have been very painful to write. I just wrote one on not being able to have children… The deepest hurts of our hearts are hard to verbalize and share with others your very private pain. This poem makes your writing so real because others can identify with it. Thanks for following and reading my posts! Come by again and stay awhile! 😛
Thank you, it has been a long time coming, but glad people have been able to connect with it – you are welcome and I will – Cheers J
What a lovely, poignant, and sad memorial to your beloved brother. I am so sorry for your loss and for the loss and sadness that your family has endured in the years since his absence. What a wonderful tribute so lovingly written.
Thank you for your kind words, much appriecated – Cheers J
“For the beautiful mermaids…
To refuse him assistance…
And hiding their eyes…”
What an evocative image! Sad yet beautifully written.
Ellespeth