“Talking with my brother, when the lights went out”…

neptune

~

I don’t think about him…

Every single day…

Since Neptune came…

And took him away…

Filling his lungs…

In that watery grave…

It happened so fast…

With no chance to save…

A life extinguished…

In the blink of an eye…

A grieving family…

Left simply asking why…

Why was he chosen…

Out of everyone…

What was the reason…

Just what had he done…

For the beautiful mermaids…

To refuse him assistance…

And hiding their eyes…

As he fought for existence…

Only Eleven years old…

With an innocent smile…

No hint of corruption…

Just a happy child…

Who loved his life…

And all that it brought…

Yet the Gods wanted him…

No matter how we fought…

But in the midst of it all…

Trauma hit my head…

Not really understanding…

He really was dead…

But by learning to lock…

The painful memories away…

Dividing into little boxes…

To be faced, maybe one day…

Then perhaps that event…

Shaped who I really am…

A boy forever trapped…

Within the emotionless man…

Who doesn’t think about things…

In the way others do…

As it’s painful to remember…

The little boy who turned blue…

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31 responses to ““Talking with my brother, when the lights went out”…

  1. This was beautiful J. The words are written with such loving memory, but the pain is so clear. I love the part about the mermaids….the song was ….loving thoughts with tears in my eyes…pure and emotional -CC

      • Sometimes what we call hiding is surviving great pain until we are ready to face it. Know how, in what ways. Sometimes it is just hiding. I have learned that. The hard part is learning the difference and how to separate it, how to manage it….how to heal. Some wounds time never will. But it lessens. Healing loving thoughts to you, J. You have always been brave. Know that. Bravery is continuing on even in spite of fear and heartbreak. All my best -CC

  2. This must have been very painful to write. I just wrote one on not being able to have children… The deepest hurts of our hearts are hard to verbalize and share with others your very private pain. This poem makes your writing so real because others can identify with it. Thanks for following and reading my posts! Come by again and stay awhile! 😛

  3. What a lovely, poignant, and sad memorial to your beloved brother. I am so sorry for your loss and for the loss and sadness that your family has endured in the years since his absence. What a wonderful tribute so lovingly written.

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