“Now you’re just somebody that I used to know”…

So the entries for the poetry challenge are coming thick and fast – I promise to get them all up when I can!

Barb wanted to go back to “her” side for this entry – read more of her stuff here:  bjsscribbles.wordpress.com

Cheers

J

alone

Now that you are someone I used to know I can tell you

Now that you are someone I used to know I can tell you,
I told myself you were right for me,
Now and then I think of when we were together,
I ached for your love,
I was happy just to be near you,
Never imagining a time would come,
When I could feel lonely in your company,
I still remember the early years,
Now and then

Now that you are someone I used to know, I can tell you,
There was a sadness in my heart towards the end,
It was an addictive sadness about nothing,
I could see the end was near,
I found I could not make sense of my life,
I was glad when it was over

Now and then you come back to me in my dreams,
Having me believe it was all my fault,
I shake myself, I want the dreams to go away,
I don’t wanna see those dreams anymore,
Your words, Your voice, come back to me,
Over and over, and make me shudder,
I just don’t wanna see those dreams anymore,
Now that you are someone I used to know

Now that you are someone I used to know, I can tell you,
You cut me off every time I spoke,
Made out like arguments never happened,
We became a shadow of our past,
You treated me like a stranger in my house and that was rough,
You were two people, one sober gentle, one drunk angry,
You chose words that cut through my self being,
Your eyes were like glass each day of our lives

Now that you are someone I used to know, I can tell you,
I had to walk away, I did not trust the sober gentle one anymore,
There was an unspoken silence each day, nothing solved,
I did not want anything, I could not live the life no longer,
I just wanted my self respect,
Lost in addictive sadness for many years,
You wanted to be friends, I heard,
But I could not

Now I can tell you, I live in a gentle world,
Fending for myself,
A simple life,
Just me and my dogs,
Solitude, just a few friends, learning to live again,
Where I spend my nights and days with my dogs,
Now that you are someone I used to know, I have told you.

18 responses to ““Now you’re just somebody that I used to know”…

      • Haha, you definitely have good competition there. Though in a way, I see it as a continuation of your poem too, since yours was about the pain she endures during the relationship and with a small hesitation to leave, but this one is where we can see that she truly breaks free and where she’s willing to fight back. In a way, I think it’s a really good fit 🙂

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