“How I wish, how I wish you were here…”

In honour of post number 600 (yes, it astounded me too!) it feels fitting to revisit where it all began. This was my first poem, not the first I showed the world, but the first I scribbled when I started…

Hope you enjoy and thank you all for continuing to read and enjoy my rambles…

Cheers
J

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It is as it is…
Perhaps it never was…
Staring into the abyss…
On the brink of utter chaos…

They sit there and judge me…
But have no idea who I am…
Can not see what I see…
Or read my cosmic plan…

They don’t really know me…
Or begin to truly understand…
Life won’t ever set us free…
Fate’s not in our command…

They find it hard to trust me…
Garden where confusion grew…
Mirror where my heart should be…
Distorts their point of view…

They won’t ever forgive me…
Sick of playing silly games…
Drowning in a spiteful sea…
Trapped in Hell’s Black flames…

They won’t ever release me…
A prisoner of their hateful war…
Even when on bended knee…
Emotional cage remains mine to explore…

They know the one who held me…
The one that I let go…
Please don’t tell nobody…
And never let it show…

It is as it is…
Perhaps it never was…
The edge of the abyss…
The brink of utter chaos…

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23 responses to ““How I wish, how I wish you were here…”

  1. Lovely to read your very first scribbles! How old is this poem, if I may ask? ^^ The darkness was surely there already 😉 I just can’t believe you made 600 posts! I haven’t even reached 100! Well, onto post #1000 🙂

  2. First congrats on 600! And what a gift to share with us! This was a raw and stunning as now..maybe more so to me.

    Please don’t tell nobody..
    And never let it show…

    Ohhh..that is what I love about your work..and with one of my all time favorite songs….I say thank you…and to 6000 more….. Cheers J – alex

  3. J, congratulations on 600 posts! Wonderful poem, you are always able to reach emotions that many can relate to. So, my favorite line, “It is as it is”. Always a pleasure to read your poetry, here’s to another 600!

    Warm wishes,
    Pepperanne

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