“Waiting for a perfect man and a perfect kiss”…

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Please don’t wait for me…
Why can’t you see…

That I was never the one…
Who was to become your Sun…

Adding warmth and light…
Into your daily fight…
Becoming entwined within your life…

Or keep you company…
And try to act funny…
When you are low and grumpy…

Or pick you up off the floor…
When you can’t take any more…
And your crying eyes are so sore…

I’m just not that man…
I simply take what I can…

And then run away…
Till the night becomes day…
Ignoring the words that you say…

Your desperate pleas…
Whilst you are on your knees…

They all fall on deaf ears…
As I begin to disappear…
With a head full of fear…

And doubt…
I don’t know why,
or what it’s all about…

But it’s something I carry…
Leaving me quite contrary…

Pulled in different directions…
As I look at my reflection…
And the growing collection…

Of myself and the versions…
Who seek out diversions…

And total distraction…
Trying to provoke a reaction…

Feeding off the thrill…
The chase and the kill…
Till the hunger is fulfilled…

Then I move on…
To some other’s song…
And I know this is wrong…

But it’s the way I progress…
In this game of chess…
And life’s fucking great mess…

It’s simply self-preservation…
Risking eternal damnation…
Whilst understanding your frustration….

At my lack of commitment…
And acting like an infant…
But it’s where we are different….
And I have remain distant…

So do not wait for me…
Don’t wail like a banshee…
Or carve our initials in a tree…

Because I’ll never be the one…
I don’t deserve your Sun…
As we never really begun…

To love…

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