“One lights up every time we feel love in our hearts”…

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In the midst of a cold Black daze…
Searching for her White knight…
In the glare of a summer haze…
Stood under dazzling bright lights…

She just can’t understand…
And could never comprehend…
She wanted to hold his hand…
Not play “Let’s pretend”
 
She wanted to be together…
And not so far away…
Wanted to hold him forever…
Not only for one day…

Like a totally insane addiction…
He was her drug of choice…
She loved him with conviction…
Now she yearns to hear his voice…
 
And melt into his eyes…
As he sweeps her hair away…
To remove her last disguise…
And hold her forever and a day…

But it will never happen…
As the light has simply faded…
His passing was so sudden…
Left her so angry and so jaded…
 
Now he’s just a memory…
His number was up too soon…
Walking through the park, he didn’t see…
The attackers in the light of the moon…

He tried his best to fight them…
But they were four to just his one…
He didn’t have a chance to defend…
His last breath robbed, now gone…
 
It was such a savage beating…
And the killers remain on the run…
As she gazes out of the window searching…
For the warmth of his loving Sun…

But now her days are Black and cold…
There is no longer a White knight…
As she struggles to keep control…
The fuckers turned out her only light…

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“Nothing else matters but what we’ve got here and now”…

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Now, right now…
Where this moment is…
All encompassing…
Overwhelming us…
Drowning together…
In a sea full of sin…
Where did this begin…
The starting point…
That initial connection…
The look that said…
Please enter my head…
Infect my soul…
Distort and distract…
Rip the reality…
Tear it into fucking shreds…
What happened…
Who, why and how…
Such confusing signs…
Deliberate blurring of the lines…
Of the right and the wrong…
In a game of chance…
With a desire to dance…
To see you again…
Hold you so tight…
And lose myself…
Give myself over…
In a trust that’s formed…
From unspoken words…
And all that was unseen…
Where so much is unclean…
Within Hell’s domain…
Where the sinner remains…
And there is no way out…
Yet no feeling of doubt…
Just this moment…
The here and the now…
Where it’s not real…
But please don’t let go…
And tell me it isn’t so…
I don’t want to hear no…
And don’t want to fight…
It just feels so right…
In the cold dark night…
Deep in your eyes…
Now, right now…
Where reality bites…
And real life fights…
Battles the inner voice…
Within the vault, behind the wall…
Where I’ll always surrender to her call…
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“I will let you down, I will make you hurt”…

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He never really knew you…
Only knew your name…
It made him feel so sick…
And he carried so much shame…

Deep within his heart…
And so far down inside…
Now that you are gone…
He’s glad that you have died…
 
It removed any doubt…
Or the slightest possibility…
Of ever running into you…
Or him ever having to see…

You with his own eyes…
And talk uncomfortably…
In front of a total stranger…
Behind a mask of bravery…
 
And speak such hollow words…
That would really mean fuck all…
Such feeble conversation…
Where worthless words would fall…

He buried you a long time ago…
Deep within his memory…
Pretended that you didn’t exist…
A ghost no other could see…
 
He moved on with the task in hand…
Of growing up alone…
In another time and place…
And somewhere he renamed home…

Where you did not belong…
And he really did not care…
You were already dead to him…
And a secret he could not share…
 
Because he never really knew you…
And you never took the time…
To even so much as contact him…
And ask if he was FINE

But now he’s all alone…
With doubts but without you…
Fucking life up his own way…
But somehow he’ll get through…

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“It’s not a cry you can hear at night”…

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He needs your help…

And he needs you here…

Let him feel you…

Let him know you are near…

Embrace him with your very soul…

Let light into his darkened hole…

Until he once again can be…

Justified in all that he can see…

And he’s down before you on bended knee…

Hoping you will hear his weary plea…

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